You were a child, crawling on your knees

Heartbroken. Shattered. Crushed. Lonely. Can't even describe, can't even do anything to sort it out. I am so tired of everything, not even the comments of Big P and Mikey G can help me out right now, which, lets face it is all I've got.

I can't find myself fitting in anywhere, I'm just not how I used to be. There just seems no hope in ever finding her again, I've gone so far down one path I just can't seem to find anything to turn me back around. Nothing to look forward to this week, not tomorrow and not at the weekend. I don't think I should do anything about it though.

And there won't be a little ending with the slightest bit of optimism, I'm officially drained.

Yes twice is nice, three times is just right

I've got my pride and I'll let you sleep tonight. So listen up...

Sleeping and eating have become a massive chore recently, late nights, early mornings and gagging on cigarettes appears to be the way I roll. Not only has it recently passed the three years mark, but I have lost my other half. Living without the two has really taken it's toll. I have never felt so lonely, I don't even had the buds that I used to.

But I have new ones, I fell asleep just past midnight last night and my tummy is filled with pasta. Tonight should sort me out, I certainly hope so. I am ready to parade around and feel gorgeous, I am ready to dance like an idiot and I'm ready to go for a coffee.