The world has come between us

I don't know why, but I have got into a very thoughtful mood. Recently I have been thinking about stuff, alot of stuff. Obviously. And all I recognise love is of fixed image sin my head, video films that were never recorded, photos that were naever taken. This is taking over my life and I really want the videos and photos to exist, and to be in my hands. I want to have the memories I have been longing for. I have finally realised that crying myself to sleep everynight is not going to help the situation. Therefore; I am pushing the best of me to the world and I'm going to fall in love. A real love, that isn't just a desire of a mans hands around me. A love that will last. I realise I am only 15, and alot of people will dispute with me saying I won't find it. But I'm Jess Sturt, and whatever I want...I will get.

All my life I have depended on love to get me through, when i was a baby I depended on my mother to feed me, clothe me and bathe me. Through my childohood I relied on my friends to give me the love, and now, although I know my friends are always here, I need a love that is stronger.

As good old Shakira sang: theres a foot for every shoe

I am a foot, and I will find my shoe, I need to, to survive.

Toodlepipx

Lifes good again :D

Right, don't get me wrong, I love Tab more than anything in the world.
But recently I've been feeling bored, doing the same shit everyday. Nothing ever changing. It's led to arguments and stuff and now Jessy Sturt has gained her confidence back.
Finally.
And most of it is due to my good friend, Miss Corrin Poo Marie Salt.

Hello

Well, this weekends been different to the usual. Me and Tab went to Sutcombe, because of like this big party thing. She enjoyed it, me not so much. Probably because I was sober. But it soon came to an end (thank God). I really didn't appreciate guys touching my ass and face just because I walk past them.
I didn't pull, surprise I think not.
Tab did, I really loved the way she would always do it when I couldn't leave her...
So I just sat there, with the face of a smacked ass.
Yesterday we stayed round Pig's till about 1 in the morning, it was fun. We watched about 5 films, they were cool actually. The walk home was hilarious.
The sleep was amazing.
And now, my arms ache, beautiful music is playing and I'm happy.
I'll just write what's on my phone.

ive been waiting for you...the film we watched last night, I fancied Eric. I found out today his name is Christian Campbell.

razorlight vice... a song I wanted to download

playground love - air. emporer norton...another song I wanted to download

adrian mutu...A fitty footballer

im a frickin chicken...I found this hilarious when I was dreaming

eyes of laura mars... a film in which Tommy Lee Jones looked stunning in

people who want pets go to a petshop. people who want a petshop go to a petshopshop. people who want a petshopshop are just being silly...it was on Little Britain. Me and Pig were in hysterics.

just the two of us - austin powers...another song to download

guess what i had for breakfast. bacon, macaroni and brocolli. oh look! 3 bs! Oh no...macaroni begins with an m...look at my brain

im so much older than i can take...Lyrics from All These Thing I've Done - The Killers that I like.

IF YOU GET WITH ONE SPICE GIRL YOU GET THE WHOLE FIVE! AAA! mel b can fuck off though...Nips made me laugh

catch your dreams before they blow away...I liked this saying

is there more to life than this?...on the back of a college bus

that immature attitude wont get you anywhere. ARCHIBALD...I just wanted Archibald to be on my phone

i know im not alone when im here on my own...me and Pig heard it on tv, it actually doesn't make sense

janiffer and normon...funny names on Coutdown Tv

gordon from bordon...Again, this is self explanatory

Have fun and take bears on holiday and leave them on mountains.
Love to all x

I'm staying in all day...I may as well make some use

And it's all in how you mix the two And it starts just where the light exists It's a feeling that you cannot miss And it burns a hole Through everyone that feels it Well your never gonna find it If your looking for it Won't come your way Well you'll never find it If your looking for it Should've done something but I've done it enough By the way your hands were shaking Rather waste some time with you And you never would have though in the end How amazing it feels just to live againIt's a feeling that you cannot missIt burns a hole through everyone that feels it Should've said something but I've said it enough By the way my words were faded Rather waste some time with you

I hate...friends?
Me?
Life?
It's all a complete load of turd.