Revelation

I don't wanna go to school; I don't need no education

I don't wanna be like you; I don't wanna save the nation

I just wanna live my life, everyday a celebration

One day I'ma leave this
world; I'm waitin for the
revelation

Although it is D12 who sing this song (called Revelation) I love those lyrics. Maybe not in the way that they are sang, but they are good lyrics.

You know, it really does my head in the way that people call bands/singers shit; everyone has different tastes. Everyone has a different way of expressing thereselves, so why should they be criticised doing this?

And God man, I'm fed up with all the shit people are throwing at Pete Doherty. Why do people see him as such bad news? Everytime I read an article about him, it is not of good news, but of bad.

Like, recently for example, he headbutted the dude from Razorlight. The writer wrote the article as if it was all Pete's fault. And that time when he cut himself; people need to learn how to cope with themselves. If he is a danger to Kate and her kid, let her deal with it. Why do people find so much joy about writing about the bad things in people's lives. One mistake could be held against someone forever. Yeah, so he's a heroin addict; many other people are, but their lives aren't spread all over the papers. No wonder why he's turned to that stuff, I know if I had to put up with the amount of shit that he's had to, I would.

I actually would.

Well, I guess this argument has probably all ready been written about, but I really needed to get that off my chest...and people

"Make Doherty History" is not funny

Highlights for today:

• Woke up next to Tab
• Saw a horse licking another horses phallus in a childs book
• Humping Tab on the bed
• Ignoring Mon and Craig when they were shouting me
• Seeing Craig bite into the chicken and getting loads of shit on his face
• Mon and Craig doing the "Freya" look
• Receiving a text from Tab saying "I love you"
• Hearing "The Bucket" as I smoked a fag
• James' text about smiling
• Knowing I have a fag right next to me
• Knowing I will be having a fag when I wake up

And that's just about it. Unless, I can find another thing to write about that annoys me. It really shouldn't be hard...but I am currently finding that it is.

So, until another time...

Little Miss Doherty x

Days dawning, skins crawling

Pure morning...

Today and yesterday has been great. I watched Braveheart with Jess. I didn't cry...but I took pictures of Jess eating her Mushroom Chop Suey with a steak fork.

Today has been great. Been socialising a lot and I have missed it.

The pain in my feet will never be missed though, actually so painful I don't want to take the plasters off.

I'm so happy today. I actually love the Kings Of Leon. I know everyone knows, but actually love them.

The Bucket, I cannot stop talking about how great this song is. I am happy. I cannot wait for more days like these.

Jess x

Reminds me of the summertime...

Wow, yesterday I got my results. "12 years of my life have been building up to this moment, for some letters on a piece of paper..."

And I kicked ass at this moment. I was never predicted an A. But I got two, because I'm hardcore:
Religious Studies = E
History = D
Business and Communication Systems = A
Art and Design = C
Food Technology = C
Mathematics = C
English Language = A
English Literature = C
Applied Science = E E
Health and Social Care = C C

So, college here I come. Gah, got dentist today. I used to fancy him...but now I don't find the idea of a grown man with children placing his gloved hand into my mouth arousing...

Suppose that it was just a phase I was going through. Must dash "lots of places to go, people to see" No...I don't.

I just wanted to say that so people would respect me...

Jess, you're annoying me.

I am covered up in skin; no one gets to come in

Well, I woke up for rather late, considering the latest I woke up when I was on holiday was about 10...

I'm hot and sweaty, already had a great day so far, that's what Tab does to me. It's crazy stuff, I don't think a day has passed which I haven't thought about her, since we've been friends I mean.

So yes, I have admitted to a couple of people that I actually like Mcfly's new song, I love the verses, just not the chorus, it sounds too much like Mcfly...

So yes, plan for today: go to Pig's and show Tabatha and him how I have blossomed into a beautiful college chick...

Pah. Immaturity should live forever, poo poo x

I've ba-ack

Who's missed Little Miss Jessy? Yes, I thought that aswell...Holiday was ok I guess. It was good talking to the family...well...some of them.
I've got lots of new clothes, and I feel great wearing them, I am now officially a sexy person.

Who is single, and shows no sign of changing that any time soon.

Bastards.

Come on guys, all I want is a dark- eyed, dark - haired geezer. Who likes music, and will sing it in my ear as I sleep. Come on, don't be shy.

I'm never gonna find him. But I can attempt to find a substitute, which will also not happen.
So, I went away with 9 long nails, came back with 7. I hate my sister and my car door.

I can't believe how many sexy men there were! I wish to move to Ashby de la Zouch and sleep with all of them. Well I'm starting to feel sick now...so I might go eat something, although I'm still as fat as a pudding. I will also attempt to make my social life exist.

Do you know how long it's been since I spoke to someone who wasn't a member of my family?! Yes...THAT long...

This is my Grandma and Grandad Sturt. I visited her grave whilst I was away, we left some flowers for her. Then we went to see Grandad. It was awfully awkward. As we left he didn't hug me back, I got really emotional at this. I remember when he first turned blind, he came to Bude to stay with us for a while. I remember walking through the door and my dad told me to go upstairs and say hello to him. So I peered through the door and said hi, then went back downstairs. Then dad asked me what I had said, and told me to go back up there to tell him that it was me, as he couldn't see who it was.

When I went back up, I sat down next to him and told him it was me, he held me for so long, it was a really strong hug. One of those hugs where you feel like bursting out crying.

It was lovely, I wish he would show that same affection to me now.

Well that's enough of that; I have no fags so I can't get myself worked up.

Hope you're all kick-assingly hardcore with a quiche, Jess x

And all you ever hear me say, is how I picture me with you.

I've actually cried! Last night I cried, like a big crying wooper! I think it's because I'm due on and I didn't have a fag yesterday, I still haven't today. I must go out today, it is my last day of freedom until the 21st.

Yes. I am going on holiday with the family. Can't wait I hear you say? YES.

That was me last year, I still love the blue Doritos. Actually love them.

I haven't had them for a while, because I'm trying to eat healthy but no matter what I do, the weight is NOT coming off.

So after an hour long phonecall from my sister yesterday, I must drink water instead of my beautiful tropical juice.
Well plans for today, none as yet. I will phone Tabby and then make her feel guilty so that she feels like she has to spend time with me.

Pig has the day off, but he may not feel like it. I feel so ill :( I should eat something...
I shall, I shall have a bowl of Fitnesse.

Well, I shall update this when I come back I guess. Actually, I don't want to leave it like this...I shall leave you with something that is lovely and will get you all thinking about life and stuff.

I was talking to my sexy Canadian friend, Geordie, last night. In his display picture he had it of a man who had killed himself. He had been very successful in his life; e.g enjoyed it. So then I asked why he had killed himself, and Geordie said this:

it ios kinda funny.... he killed himself because he wanted to. Once you've had all the fun you can have, theres no sense in going down hill

I thought it was great and inspiring. No I'm not going to kill myself if I have a great life...and my font is the same as his now :| Stop it!

Well, I hope this is enough for all you people. I might go shower, but eat first, and try to arrange my last day of socialising with my friends.

Toodlepip x

All the chickenheads, be quiet!

Hey ho! Good morning Campers.

I'm up at 9:03 a.m on a Monday morning, and it sucks! I had good old Jess over last night, I thought "If she stays tonight we can talk all night about useless shit, then we can wake up really early."

So yeah. I haven't made any plans, whatsoever, today. Probably because it's 9:05 a.m in the morning. My tummy feels hungry, but it cannot eat alot today. It had a REALLY nice Chinese last night, and it shouldn't of.

But I'm such a weak person...baby you got me so crazy baby. I hate calling people "baby" or "babe", I think they're stupid pet names. "Darl" is cool, that's why I use it, "Tab" is good too, I use that a lot. But "Hun"? Nah-ah *shakes head*

Oh, "Pooface" is quite effective aswell. So yeah, that's my boyfriend. I like to feed him porridge after our hot nights in bed. :D

I actually can't describe how ecstatic I was when I saw that this picture ACTUALLY existed:

Well that's enough about sexy Luke. Well yeah, how much do you want to bet on that Nicky, if anyone, will be the only person to text me today? How much do you wanna bet that Tab won't contact me at all? But Pig will have no choice :( I will hound him down dammit.

Thanks for listening *tick*

I wish I knew your world

I haven't spoke to my friends at all, apart from via the internet, for 3 days. But that changes today, I'm going Pig's.

I haven't heard from Jess in a while, probably because she's off being a happy camper. God, my hair feels horrible. I must do something about it. Like dye it purple and spray it with glitter spray.

That would actually be awesome. I really don't wanna go on holiday! I can guarantee no friends will ring me, and I'll be forced to talk to my cousins and other family members. If you read this, friends, ring me. I'm leaving Friday, then coming back the next Friday.

But on the plus side, I get new clothes. And a holiday. And a chance to have a sniff at the world, and take some kick ass photos.

Last night was well fun, me and Dan always get into these moods where we want to be stupid on cam, then we always take pictures. Last night was hilarious due to the fact he kept showing me his nipple, really randomly. It'll be like.
Me: You ok
Dan: Yes *shows nipple*

I have gone insane haven't I? Wait...maybe you should answer that question after you've seen this...

It was taken last night, I really like the lines on my face! I think they bring out the colour of my eyes...

Not what's cooler than being cool? ICECOLD! I can't hear ya! I said what's, what's cooler than being cool?

I love Outkast, they make me happy as a quiche on a purple lead.

Ha! Mine and Dan's conversation, right now...

Em Elbmuh; We'll serenade the world, with the fire brigade. And Luke Shaw says:

i dont wanna meet your momma, i just want to make you cumma

Dan. says:

dirty giiiiirl

Em Elbmuh; We'll serenade the world, with the fire brigade. And Luke Shaw says:

i'm a big dirtbag

Dan. says:

bless

We really do have a meaningful relationship :). Well, the time has come for me to hit the shower, not literally as that would be painful and stupid, but so I can get clean and so I can go to Pig's house.

Toodlepip...

I'm about to lose control and I think I'll like it...

I've been awake for approximiately 2 hours and 45 minutes. I woke up to find the Goo Goo Dolls Live in Buffalo dvd had arrived.

I watched it immediately of course, I even continued to watch it when Jacob thought it was cool to chew on my ankle. John Rzeznik is so gorgeous. I actually want to marry him. I couldn't handle watching the bonus footage as he was talking to a member of the opposite sex, if you know what I mean...

He smokes fags so sexily! Oh damn son, I have none :( . Alcohol tonight, I'm just gonna sit in front of the tv and watch the dvd again, and just cry.

Great plan. I'm so hungry but I must starve myself as I am becoming a porker, and I don't want that. I love John.

Oh my friend you haven't changed.

That conversation that I had with Sarah was amazing, and I love it. I love it so much I want to have the exact same person with everybody else in the whole wide world.

Today, I went out by myself and came by myself. I'm, how do you put it...dreaming. I also broke a nail, that pissed me off. I'm just waiting for Jess and Tab to pop along now so I can go out and actually talk to someone.

I walked past two girls today. Apparantly one of them is a coke addict, and the other one is just like a goth womanwantingtobeman kinda person, well yeah, as it came to the time for me to pass them, I couldn't. They were sticking to eachother, so I thought that I would laugh to show that I meant it as a non-threatening gesture. But. I failed to do this. As I have a cough at the moment, my laugh just turned into a sort-of growl...

So they must of thought I was a weirdo...I came home, hoovered a little and now I'm just chilling marn.

Jess phoned me but my battery run out, she probably thinks I hung up on purpose because she hasn't rang back...poo.

I got another letter from Lettie today. I've replied already, just not put a stamp on yet. I love her, and her family.

I don't have a clue whether to go out with Corrin tomorrow or not...I'll have nothing else to do and it would be great as I haven't seen her for years. Ages. Weeks. Days.

Wow, I downloaded a new song today, and I just knew it was playing as I've never heard it before...aren't I a clever little girl?

I keep looking out the window for Jess and Tab, and I keep opening it when there's people outside, they must think I'm a weirdo!

Well yeah, I do far too many paragraphs, it looks le manky.

I haven't used that word in ages.


Oh yeah Tab, I was having an argument with Charlotte, those are your tits in her display pic aren't they?

I swear they are...

I'm so soft

Last night I remembered one time when I was really scared about my mum. Fran had failed to come home another night, so mum rang the police. I begged her not to because all that Fran was doing was seeking attention, also, her boyfriend (who she was with at the time) lived with a drug dealer, which a lot of people relied on.

So, if mum did give Ronald's address to the police, and they went there searching for Fran, he could be quite literally fucked. And I thought, if it was because of my mum, something real bad might happen to her because of it.

So I didn't sleep that night. I'm such a poo. God, this guy has just came online, I can imagine his voice, it's horrible. God, why don't I just have the heart to block him? OOh! My new fitty friend is talking to me, must dash.

I got a letter from college today, so I know where I'm going in the morning and stuff. God, I am quite literally shitting myself. I keep saying God, sorry. But seriously though folks, the introductory day is to "get-to-know" your personal tutor and your class and stuff...what happens if I'm just shit at everything? Well it's the 6th of September so I need improve my social skills by then, instead of jsut lifting up my top.

Toodlepip :)

I hate this mother fucking thing

I wrote so much this morning, including festering pictures, but no! My computer is a piece of shit.

So here is my post, probably nothig how I had written it before, but hey. I am pissed off. Gay piece shit fuck dead dead dead.

Oh yeah, I spoke to Raymi. BUT I TRIED WRITING ABOUT THAT 3 DAYS AGO.

She said I was pretty...here is the proof:

I wrote about this gorgeous film that I watched last night "House Of Flying Daggers". I highly recommend it, it made my heart break. There was a gorgeous man in it. I'll post a picture of him tomorrow, I had lots lined up but due to Shitty McShitcomp I couldn't.

Yeah...I haven't given up smoking yet.

I wonder why the hell not?

Is it going to let me post yet?

This is actually starting to piss me off now...

I have to contain all my emotions, rather than writing them on the internet.
I need a shower but there isn't enough hot water, my family are so selfish.

They've turned so shellfish infact, they are turning into crabs.

Here's me, looking cool and wonky:

I watched the Prince and Me last night with Jaybie. It was quite good, the lead character man was stunning in an unusual way. I didn't find his face to be that attractive, his body was amazing though.

check him out:



Well yeah, I'm just gonna have a bath anyway now. I hate not being washed...

Toodlepip!