All the world can pass me by

My first college party shall be occuring in approximately 4 hours. I don't know why I keep talking about it, it will probably be completely shit. I have been welcomed to Jamrock, how hardcore am I?

A lot, also, Damien Marley told me he loves me. Don't spread it though, I'm trying to find a way to get rid of him. He's damaging Mr Doherty and I's relationship. That really doesn't make much sense. But I shall have to deal with it as I don't know what else to write.

Let's put a picture or two on, my blog has been looking rather bland recently. Almost as bland as a carrot cake which is bland. Did you notice the wit there? I thought so...

So, I have been listening to the same three songs for a while now, I have deleted all my music off my computer. At least they're all kinda varied...

I guess things just turn out that way, yeah, I want you to love me, I want you to know I'm just like you. Just like you. A thousand words unspoken, another dream another day, yeah, just like you. Just like you. A thousand words just like you. I want you to love me, I want you to know I'm just like you. You. You. A thousand words just like you. A thousand words just like you. A thousand words just like you. A thousand words just like you.

You beat your head upon your wall. You disconnect yourself from it all, when you know that you're so beautiful, you're so untouchable. And I wanna get in so bad, and I don't know how. And I don't know how.

That's enough of that. Beautiful part of the song, that is.

Don't blink, you might miss...

Well, I have not smoked a cigarette for over 12 hours, I am rather hardcore. With a quiche, I might have added a couple of years ago.

I've changed my room around, and it's a complete mess. But I'm going through all my drawers of shit and I'm making it organised. I've come across so many things that I am so embarrassed about! What was I thinking? I must have thought I was well cool. Ooh! And I found the skateboard necklace I always used to wear because Craig was a skater.

The amount of books I have which are full with things like "I love Craig Skelly" is unbelievable. I have put all my notes, diaries and books that I write in my cupboard of Jessness. I really hope no one ever wants to have a sniff at what I have written.

I started getting emotional about it actually, I was reading my old diaries and it was like...woah! I totally remember that, then I wrote in my new one and it's like...what the fuck? These people seem like strangers to me.

I really miss Lettie! Aw...

When there's nowhere else to run, is there room for one more sun?

One more sun...

If you can hold on, if you can hold on.

Hold on.

I love this song, I bet y'all can guess what it is. Ah, here comes that great guitar bit. And now the drums. I might just have to stand up and let go...

I wanna stand up, I wanna let go. You know, you know...

I wanna shine on in the hearts of men. Yes, all the lyrics are great, I shall probably listen to this song about 41 times. I'm having a bad day, everything seems shit. I spoke to Jem earlier, I think him and Nicky are going to get it on. I swear if they do I shall actually cry. I don't have a clue what I'd do, but it definately looks as if it is going that way. She's with Moley for fat snakes, and she clearly knows I adore Jem, so why is she doing this?

I've got soul but I'm not a soldier.

So, last night. I did have insomnia. I tidied my room, stuck things back on the wall, and wrote more lyrics on the wall. I then decided to go through my 3 mp3 cds and write what made me download each song.

Here are the results:

Overall, my family influenced me to download 25 songs.
My friends influenced me to download 58 songs.
My internet friends influenced me to download 40 songs.
The people who I fancy influenced me to download 41 songs. (Mr Brightside has just came on, how great)
Random people (ones that I don't associate with) influenced me to download 9 songs.
Films/Television and Radio influenced me to download 47 songs.
My best friends influenced me to download 50 songs.
And the guys from the internet that I am attracted to influenced me to download 32 songs.

That's quite interesting isn't it? No...no it isn't.
And I have just made another mp3 cd, so I shall more than likely be doing the statistics on that as I will do anything to avoid doing my law, philosophy or graphic design coursework.

I'm a rebel like that

I believe it's my God given right, to detroy everything in my sight

Because it never gets dull, it never gets old.

That is right. Well not really, but the lyrics to this song are pretty cool apart from the constant relation to "Tall Boy".

Ah, it's playing on the song. I love listening to this whilst thinking of a certain person. I do that with a lot of songs, I relate it to a person. Then I...yeah that's enough. Little Miss Jessy thinks far too much.

As I was walking home I wondered what I would do if I couldn't sleep. Wait a second, Smashing Pumpkins - Tonight, Tonight is playing now. This song is great; Dave I miss you so much! (Again). I really do miss him. Jackson has just signed in. I wish I could get plastic surgery to look like Michael Jackson, actually imagine two Michael Jackson's. That would be crazy, anyway...back to the theory of preventing insomnia...

If I couldn't sleep I was considering changing my room around, then I remembered the time when I tried to do it by myself, as I get so stressed when it does happen that nobody wants to see me for about a week. So I struggled to push a part of the 3-piece wardrobe along the landing, then it came to the 2 or 3 steps just outside the bathroom, so I tried to do it by myself and it fell on top of me. I just felt like screaming for help, but it didn't work. I just couldn't do it. So I managed to lift it by myself, and it damaged some of the landing paint work, but I have kept it to myself.

So yeah, I might not do that, I might just clean my room or do some graphics.

Today was great, me and Tab watched 3 films in a row. The Virgin Suicides (still can't get enough of it, gotta listen to Air - Playground Love some time soon), Fern Gully (Everyone loves the bit where they walk through the puddles and they light up) and then finally half of the Secret Garden, Tab and I just wanted to watch the bit where she found the boy crying.

Ace in the face.

Then we went to Will's, I was hugging Lilley the majority of the time. I need a boyfriend, and no I am not attracted to him at all. I just like hugging, when under the influence.

Cheers mates. All my mates. Calling around the world. This song is still playing, I think it may be on repeat. I really need to listen to U2. Might just do that when I go to bed.

Sleeping in, sleeping in. No matter what the time is

People say that you die, faster then without water. Though we know it's just a lie. Scary son scary daughter.

This song is amazing. I miss my internet buddy, Dave, a lot. He was great to talk to.

So yeah, I wanted to write this post a couple of days ago, when I was full on enthusiasm. But I have no clue what to write now. I'm just recovering on all the sleep and things.

How fun for you to read. I'll write another time.

I will try to fix you

This weekend has actually been amazing. I was so wrecked, I attempted to do my philosophy essay. It took roughly 5 hours to write. At the end of it all, it was incompleted and made absolutely no sense whatsoever.

So.

That is I.

Nothing like the taste of sweet decline

So, I have finally arrived home, after weekends full on food, dancing, babysitting and nudity. Ok, the last two have nothing to do with each other; je suis not a paedophile.

It feels good never coming home. However, I miss my keyboard. We've spent so much together; science projects frim Year 7 up to rapidly downloading a song just to be able to dance to it later that night.

I must give up stripping down to my bra and a top which I decided should be worn as a skirt. Why do people have camera phones? Just so that they can record my semi-permanent insanity which lasts roughly 1 minute? I hate the way they decide to show everyone at college the next day.

Yes yes, that's right. I'm at college now. It's gone so fast, I can't wait for all the rewarding grades at the end of it all. That was sarcasm. My photography tutor recognises my sarcasm, and because of this tries not to start a conversation with me.

Je suis in love with him. Why do I start things off French then just lead it to nothing? It is because he suis an idiot. I miss my sister Lisa.

You can see she's a beautiful girl, she's a beautiful girl

I feel so much like a college girl! Or should I say...chick.

At the weekend I was doing Tequila Slams. It was so fun, and mature. Talking of mature...how do you spell immature?

P-O-O

Well done Jess. That's a hilarious joke. Almost as good as this...(hand gestures are kinda needed...)

God's sitting here Jesus is sitting here, doing this:

*Imitate Jesus biting palms of hands*

God: Jesus, stop biting your nails

Good old Janine there. Ooh, another bit or mature fun. The film Along Came Polly is actually awesome. Ben Stiller and Jennifer Aniston are in it. Imagine the comedy! Well yeah, he goes to this party and this happens.

Ben's Mate: Hey man, we gotta leave the party, right now, a situation has arose.
Ben: What's that?
Ben's Mate: I just sharted
Ben: I don't know what that means...
Ben's Mate: I farted...and a little bit of shit came out

It is a classic example of how...you know...

Wonderboy. What is the secret of your power? WONDERBOY, WON

Gah, mum just interrupted me with a rather refreshing glass of Tropical Juice. I've been told by many that it is not healthy for me to drink so much Tropical Juice. But what would they know?

Lots and lots, as I have no idea what is good for me. Hense why I'm still drinking the Tropical Juice.