Hi!
I'm feeling a lot happier now! Yesterday was well good, I dunno why though, I'm just back to normal I suppose. First and second lesson I was at the "dentist" watching sky with Sammy, Alanis Morissette is quite funny, she has a little bit of gertrude in her! Then Sammy went back for second lesson while I stayed there and watched Saved By The Bell, dude I love it! I went back at break and met up with Clur, Tabby wasn't there . So me and Clur arranged to meet at outside the drama hall for lunch. Third lesson was Food. It was ok. Could be alot better though, they always make food when I'm at college . It does my head in! Fourth lesson was english with the perv. Jess was there FINALLY! I have a friend . We read Lord Of The Flies All Lesson. At lunch me and Clur went Safeway, I saw Martin (I'm his stalker), he was looking.. um...Good! We saw our stalker lady person, yes that's right, we have a stalker ! YEY! We started to walk back and when Clur stepped over this little fence thing she made a dirty mark on her trousers, so me being the nice person I am, tried taking the embarrassment away from her, and that is exactly what I did! What I was supposed to do was just make a mark on my trousers, but I ended up falling on my ass . An Clur was like . We got back into school in like the earliest time ever! Well last lesson was Science with Sammy . It was well funny! Mr Bradbury was in a REALLY bad mood so Sammy was constantly ripping the piss out of him and I couldn't stop laughing, so I was moved :(. After that I actually did work! WOOHOO! I spoke to Tilzey about moving and he says I have to work for it, then I asked him if I could have a day trial when Miss Murphy (Sammy, I found it!) gets back, he said he'll think about it so fingers crossed...
Oh yeah, back to the science lesson. I liked the end bit. Sammy actually let me hug him! So I though about all the time he didn't give me a hug then I rolled them all into one! Basically, I didn't let him go! Then I started hugging his leg...
I went back to Letty's because my parents have gone away for the weekend WOOHOO! We didn't really do anything then later we went to Safeways and i gave Martin his christmas card, he said thanks then called me a wierdo, how rude??? Then we went back and I made them watch Magic all night just incase Goo Goo Dolls came on, which it did! THREE TIMES! Yup, definately a good day. I stayed up until 4:30 this morning waiting for one song that never came :(. Joan Osbourne, One Of Us. I love that song! I woke up about 12:30 this morning so when Letty told me she was going shopping I used this as an oppurtunity to tlak 2 you guys. Well I g2g, Letty's expecting me
Love Y'all
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, I was born in Cyprus! yey!
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Hi. Todays been another bad day. I dunno whats wrong with me but I'm really unhappy. All last night, all I could think about was what I would say to Tilzey, I started crying and I didn't get to sleep til about 3. I can't be myself anymore, somethings drained all the life out of me. First lesson today was history but because evryobe else in the year (apart from my science class, we're in an applied science group) had to do a test, so I was put with all the other students who had history first lesson. Great fun!!! NOT! Second lesson was maths... I WON'T HAVE A NERVOUS BREAKDOWN! So me, Kristie, Lisa and Nicola went to Mrs Ryan's room and coloured in pictures... fun! At break I met up with Tabby and Clur and stayed with them. Third lesson was english with Perve. I did absolutely nothing, but Dave and Alex did the most hilarious piece of work I've before in my life. That seriously did cheer me up! Fourth lesson was science. When we were lining up I saw Aodh's finger do something really dodgy so I looked at him wierdly and he started saying that he was gonna flick this guys breast, I just found that hilarious and I couldn't stop laughing! I went in, and right from the start it started off bad. First of all I said that Mr Ryan had nice eyes, he liked that! But he didn't like me calling Kristie a bitch, so I nearly got sent outside, but I didn't! After that I drew on the board and Russ nearly got the blame so I said it was me, then to top it all off I smashed a glass. As REM sing: It's been a bad day, please don't take a picture...
Lunch has been without a doubt the worst in my life. I went with Tabby, Clur and Sammy . But I think because of my depressesiveness I was being a twat to him. I think I've truely blown my friendship with him. I hate it when I do that. He was a really good friend too. I always have to get caught up in everything else, I don't give a shit about what happens to the people I care most about. I guess I'm just pissed off because if it wasn't for me then he wouldn't be friends with Tabby and Clur in the first place and I'm getting left out now. I've brought it all on myself, if I wasn't such a bitch. Guys I'm so sorry. I never meant for things to get this bad. . Before you say anything Sammy, yeah I know I'm copying you! But I like them!!! Well like I said, I'm sorry.
I love you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxP.S Here's some more...
dude! I think it's Elton John!!!! Sammy, that ones for you and all your "foonky monkeys" Now that's what I call cute! It's like a lil Daniel Johns! Well Ive g2g bye xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hi! im at college again. Yeah I was pissed off yesterday! Well I said sorry to Sammy! He's staying with his "holies" though, it does my head in! Today we've learnt 4 carols in sign language, I'll show you all one day...
Gotta go, If you read this Tabby or Clur, I'm missing you. Love y'all
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I swear, if my comp suddenly crashes I will beat the shit out of it! I am officially the world's most pissed off teenager. My day has been shit right from the start and that's how it's goona end. I'm bullied continuously about my hair, yeah I have a blokes haircut and yeah my voice is weird, but I don't ask you to critisize me. I have no friends and the only ones I do are after the guy I've fallen madly in love with. I can't handle anything and I just wanna get off this fucking earth. Why does everything seem to be bad in my life. It seems like everything is poured out on me. I really don't wanna have to go through anything else, I cried through a maths lesson. I need a fag. I need a life. I need a reason to go on and I sure as hell need a decent haircut.
Here's the lyrics to the most perfect song in the world. I think it describes me best at the moment:
The Young And The Hopeless


Hard days make me
Hard nights shake me
I don't know this soul must save me
And i know im making something out of this life they call nothing
Take what i want
take what i need
they say it's wrong, but its right for me
I wont look down
Wont say im sorry
I know that only god can judge me


[Chorus]
And if i make it through today
Will tomorrow be the same
Am i just running in pace
And if i stumble and i fall
Should i get up and carry on
Will it all just be the same
Cause im young and im hopeless
im lost and i know this
im going nowhere fast thats what they say
im troublesome im falling
im angry at my father
its me agaisnt this world and i dont care
i dont care


And no one in this industry
understands the life i lead
when i sing about my past
its not a gimmick, not an act
These critics, and these trustfront kids
trying to tell me what punk is
but when i see them on the street they got nothing to say


[Chorus]
And if i make it through today
Will tomorrow be the same
Am i just running in pace
And if i stumble and i fall
Should i get up and carry on
Will it all just be the same
Cause im young and im hopeless
im lost and i know this
im going nowhere fast thats what they say
im troublesome and falling
im angry at my father
its me agaisnt this world and i dont care
i dont care i dont care...and now i dont care
oooooo ooooo oooooo


im young and im hopeless
im lost and i know this
im going nowhere fast thats what they say
that im troublesome and falling
im angry at my father
its me agaisnt this world and i dont care
i dont care. i dont care. i dont care.

And this is the most beautiful song in the world. It's without a doubt the most beautiful song I've ever heard and if anyone ever disses it I will die.


GOO GOO DOLLS



Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am (break and solo) And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


Well gotta go now. I need some sleep, I've got college tomorrow with the friend that always calls me "fat ass". Well bye

aaarg! It jus deleted everything.. To cut a long story short, wednesday, i did nothing, thursday, I did nothing, Friday I did next to nufin, and saturday I dint do anything at all. Today I went to church, came home, ate lots and now am on the internet, Take care folks love u xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hi! I'm at school. Soz I ain't updated in a while, my computers been funny. I can't write much, I've got science things to do. I'll write more Saturday because I'm staying round Letty's tonight. take care twats xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

hey im in college again. Today we've had to do loads of work, Sammy I need to ask you loadsa questions about exercise...
I'm missing you, Tabby and Clur loads! So if you read this tell them that! Well I've ate loadsa munch today, so much for the diet... sorry but I don't think ANYONE will be getting Christmas presents from me this year.. apart from Karen, cuz I've already got hers! Well nothing else to write so I'll write more later. I've got loadsa work to do. So take cre, as Leon would say, my little furry friends...
BYE!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey. Yesterday was pretty straight forward, even though I kept thinking it was Tuesday! I went school (obviously). First lesson was art. I sit on a table with Anna, Matt, usually this dude called Tom but today we had a new boy, Sam from Coventry. He seems cool. After Art was English. I read about carnivores, it's great! I'm reading the Lord Of The Flies book thing. I'm studying it for GCSE's because I'm smart! Even though I can hardly spell on this thing! After that was break, naturally I spent it woth Sammy, I think! Wait a sec...Yeh I did! I was with him and Daniel...Third lesson was science with Sammy! YEY! After that lesson we did the usual thing, bunked. We went down Letty's. We arrived and she wasn't there so after an agreement, we decided that I would crawl in her kitchen window and unlock the door, so I went in and after about 30 seconds, Letty came. How rude??? So we watched a bit of tv then the power cut... Well I took Sammy upstairs and raped him.. Nah only kidding. I showed him the beds, I actually did! Then we were going down the stairs and I attacked him so we ended up going down the stairs in a different way.. This is sounding soooo dirty but it's purely innocent! TRUST! Well we went back to school and we went went our separate ways... I wen to Safeways with Tabby, Clur and this dudette, Abi, and Sammy went with his "holies". So we went and we were in fits of laughter. We came back after deciding that tomorrow we would take loads of photos of Pugwash and the "angle". Well last lesosn was maths, Tabby was moved, tut tut. We now have to sit in a seating plan, how pathetic? She just doesn't like our singing voices. I think we're quite good! We're called "Under The Influence". I went back to Lettys and the electric was still not there, so we wen to Spar then came back and sat nervously without lights. Then her mum came back and showed us where the torch was... Oops! Well I stayed the night again, and how all good nights must end, we watched a disney film, Mulan: Down Bessie! Yeah, I know this is REALLY sad. But I didn't go to bed till 3 because I was thinking of Sammy!
Today has been sooooooooo cool! It started off with not seeing Sammy so I broke down into tears... joke! But I didn't see him... Well first lesson was r.e with Alex, it was great we were talking about loadsa stuff, I actually really do appreciate his friendship! Well second lesson was art, I really enjoy it now. At break I hung with everyone! You see I love everyone so i hang round with loadsa different people. Like I used to hang round with this certain group, but now I hang round with Claire and Tabby and the others are getting upset and missing me :(. So first I was with Anna and Corrin. Then I saw Sammy. Then I saw Tabby and Clur, then I went back to Sammy. 3rd lesson was business and communications, I seriously wish I'd never chose it. 4th lesson was with.. wait 4 it.. SAMMY! It was not funny becasue he's fallen out with sincere loving Russ, who I love to pieces, and it's hard because Sammy was moody and so on and so forth.. Then for lunch Me, Tabby, Clur and Sammy went up Safeways and it was pretty cool. Laughter again, photos, of me and Sammy in a bush, I was pushed ok, then they wouldn't let me out because they "wanted a photo" so I made a big thing out of it and whilst crawling out, I accidently forced myself on top of him, woopsie daisie! 5th lesson was something...HISTORY! Me and Clur had a laugh with the very fit teacher, My Tyrell can mark my books anytime! Well came home and it's been pretty shit. I gotta go, this had taken far 2 long! Take care and remember life is the art of drawing without an eraser, you can nevr rub out things in life, just imprve them :)
love u guys, and I mean that!
PlOp
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Well todays has been such a fun Sunday! NOT! I went to church and I was ignored, I love it! NOT! This guy knew what kind of socks I was wearing because of my scraf... FREAKY! Well then I came home, got a phone call from Letty so I went roind hers. I watched Eastenders, then when it was the one I hadn't seen ( Kat and Alfie fing) my mum phoned me up and I had to walk home all by myself :(. I bumped into my really good mare, Craig, though. He was looking good ;). I came home. Ate tea, listened to top 40, danced to a few... I love Outkasts new song, Hey Ya! I'm listening to it now, this is what I call a banging tune! Well yeah, after that I had a bath, then came on ere. I'm missing Graham Norton! He's such a dude, if it was up to me I'd watch him 24/7. Well I haven't really done anything else. So I'm gonna go. and remember...
SHAKE IT LIKE A POLAROID PICTURE! Love y'all PlOp xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey guys! I ain't written for a while, I'm apolagising to the guys that are going to make a film out of my life, I'll fill you in...
THURSDAY: Really bad day. Went to school. Saw Sammy on the crutches, quite amusing I must say! Nothing really happened within school which is worth writing about, I got in trouble in maths, so did Clur and Sammy. Me, Tabby, Clur and Sammy went off to Safeways for lunch like we do and I was completely ignored. Sammy would constantly talk to Claire and Tabby but when it came to me I felt like I shouldn't be there. I'm starting to feel like I need to find somewhere I belong. It's like the Linkin Park song. I need to find Somewhere I Belong. I just don't fit in anywhere and I really did think that this time I might of got it right. Obviously not. Went home and did nothing. Went over Letty's later and stayed over. We went to bed later then her family so we couldn't flush the toilet because it would wake them up. So Letty did a piss then we were drifting off to sleep when we heard something come up the stairs, I asked Letty what it was and she said that it was her dog, Gypsy. Then we just heard the toilet being drank from and we both just laughed so much! Yvonne (her mum) and Rod (the boyfriend) think that me and Letty are sleeping with eachpther! How rude is that??? Well yeah that was it for that day...
FRIDAY: Went to school. Sammy was there as soon as I arrived! It's such a good sight to wake up to! First lesson was p.e which was great because I had volleyball with Tabby and we were throwing it around everywhere. We're in the fat group you see, Clur used to be with us, but she's been promoted! BITCH! Second lesson was with the bitch, Miss Welham. Well she probably isn't a bitch, shes just like it to me. I then went into the canteen at lunch and "hung" with Sammy. Later on we saw Tabby and Claire and that was that... 3rd lesson was food. That was pretty cool. I'm making Lemon Curd on Thursday, remind me! 4th lesson was English. I hate him soo much! I wasn't made for top group. He makes me feel so small. He does my head in!
Then it was lunch. Our usual crew went up Safeways. I wasn't quite as ignored as yesterday. I'm so happy that Tabby's there to keep me to frip with my sanity (what i have left). Well on the way back it was hilariously funny. Sammy did MR-BUSASTOW/SIMON COWELL STYLIE with the trousers and it was hilarious! You had to of been there! Well last lesson was science with Sammy WOOHOO! I sat next to him at first but was moved by the furry nosed/eared man. I sat at thr front which led me having a conversation with Alex and Russell about Sammy. They said I shouldn't bother with him and all this crap. But the crap made sense! So I told him and he got pissed of with me (I think) so I told him to fuck himself. It made me feel real wierd! I was soo angry at him. Later on we made up though! After school I went to Lettys and we then went to the bowling alley. It was supposed to be with the Jax crew but Letty kinda made me play pool wiht her the whole time. Sammy seemed to like Letty. It does my head in. Why are all my mates so much better then me? He blaitently likes (as in fancy, I just don't want to admit to it) Clur, Tabby and Letty. Maybe Russ and Alex were right after all, I am just wasting my time. I'm fighting for something that will never happen. I need to get my head ou tof the clouds. My life's shit, It was made to go this way and it will continue to.
SATURDAY: Went to Plymouth, Letty got her tounge pierced. It looks great, just like everything else about her. She bought clothes. I was always left standing there looking like a complete moron like I usually do. Some things will never change. It's always been Letty over me and when I'm next to he I find it hard to breathe. She's choking the life out of me and i can't do anything to stop it. She's just made like that, she'll always be the pretty one who gets everyone while I'm the depressed freak in the corner who follows her around. I want my individual life and I just can't have it. Why is everyone against me? I was put on here for a reason, and I don't know why! Help me please, I can't handle it.
I KNOW THAT ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME
IT'S ME AGAINST THIS WORLD AND I DON'T CARE
Life moves on, but for me it won't, EVER
bye

Hey! Dude, ain't my life fun! College wasn't that bad, but it wasn't that good either! Because of those evil college people I miss out on a day with Sammy, it sounded like it was a good day because he had his leg amputated! I have to miss everything! Oh, and for the next 2 years I get to study Sammy's health, how fun? My tutor, pauline, is concerned about him, but I can't say why because it's 100% confidential...
Well yeah, I came home, waited till 6 then spoke to Sammy. I asked him to sing a song and he sang a completely different one, me being me found this incredibly hilarious, but it obviously isn't...
Then I had a bath, then I've been on here for ages looking for something to do, Sammy isn't on here, how rude?
Well nothing else to report (lmao!) I've missed Graham Norton. My parents want me to go on here earlier so I get sleep, it's healthy you know! Well 've printed out a colour version of Sammy so I will now leave Love Y'all, I'll try rite more at school because I hate home! bye xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey! I'm at college, how fun??? Well I was tierd and nearly didn't get up but I thought I would! So here I am! I eat so much when I'm here because the foods cheap. Well I'm gonna go cuz I don't know what else to write
byexxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey I'm home now, after watching my daily dosage of Graham Norton I'm doing real good! Last night I cried myself to sleep lastnight because Sammy said he liked Tabby, then Letty (it was a joke, I think) but it just made me think about everything, and all the people I've liked always likes my mates and it does my head in, suppose I'm just not good enough! I'll get over it sooner or later, i always manage to eventually! Well Ive made a new cd and its all the depressing songs that I love, I've probably written about it already, but you'll get over it!
Well I'm gonna go
love y'all
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxoh yeh, thanks Tabbyabbyabbyabbatha, Clur and SaMmY, you make people in this world happy, and I appreciate it! See you guys thursday xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Aloe chico, I'm in a science lesson. The reason i didn't improve this thing yesterday was because my sister is a bitch! But she has a nice, ginger baby...
Yesterday was pretty bad, I gone without smoking for 23 and a half hours! WOOHOO! But then I went to Lettys and had one! It was her birthday yesterday and I bought her a tounge bar. It's pink with white stripes. I'm getting photos developed today from ages ago so that'll be pretty amusing. At lunch yesterday I went up safeways and ate shit. I've put on half a stone. Well that's enough about me. We've just discovered Daniel has a fettish with dildos. He likes gay porn. He's my boyfriend...
kidding!Well I'm going now, I'll write more later. Love y'all
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Hey, today hasn't really been a good day. I woke up and went to church, I felt isolated again. There was no cheery happy smiley Sammy face to make me smile, I've gotta stop with the whole Sammy thing don't I? It's getting quite embarrassing now! Well I had a little chat with Matt. He's so cool! He was in his Scout's uniform, I can tell he's cool because he went shopping one time with my mum! When I came home I kept singing and then thought to myslef, I need to make myself a depressing cd! So I browsed through my sisters cds and got loadsa cool ones. So most of today has been spent on this computer! I finally copied it, went downstairs, listened to the top ten, fatman scoop has a fat head! I love Outkast's new song, Hey Ya! It's soooo cool! At the mo I'm listening to the drugs don't work by the verve, I love it! Then me and Mum remembered there was this bonfire thing going on so we left to go to that. We had missed the fireworks! But I came prepared, I brought sparklers! Well came hoem and went on this thing. Right I'll be going now. I love Elton John!!!
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NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I just wrote soooooooo much then, and my computers just deleted it all! aahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! Dude! I'm sooooo annoyed right now its untrue!
Wednesday: went to college, Corrine and Chrissy left me by myself so I was forced to work with Stacey, EUGH! Came home on the bus, got attacked by Corrine, she thought it was funny tickling my adam's apple, then tying me by my scarf to the seat infront of me. I got Dave's number, WOOHOO! Came home, did nothing else, Graham Norton was hilarious!
Thursday: Really bad day, didn't eat or drink anything, I desperately need to lose weight! In science I broke down, had to leave the room, the toilets are my only friends! Came back, Bradbury has to stand right in front of me, just where I can get a clear view of his nostril fluff, it's really disturbing! Went back to Letty's, had lots of fags ( I was pissed off) then Dave came round, we went down mine to get my ingredients for school tomorrow, but forgto the pastry...
Friday: Got up, had a fag, I like Letty's make up! Went into school. Had a little chat with Sammy outside the form then Frankie came... BITCH! All she does it go on and on and on and on about guys saying she got a nice ass, and big tits, and all you hear is Farrar this, Farrar that, Ant this, Ant that, Richard Philips fancys me! Like I care Frankie??? I know she's supposed to be my mate but it really annoys me! Had science first, Sammy did a kind of IT picture, scary shit! R.e second, we got to watch house invaders, yey, just the reason why I come to school! 3rd lesson we had maths, Tabby was annoyed, only 2 words to say about that... oh dear.
4th lesson was food tech, but my mum didn't bring the pastry did she? So in the end I had to help Nicola, if anyone notices, she isn't particularly my favourite person. If you read this Nicola it's because of these reasons...RUSSELL, ALEX, SAMMY AND DANNY!
5th lesson was history, I got pushed aside becasue miss wasn't there so i sat next to Jenny Moore, she's really paranoid and orange with foundation...
Before I started walking home I went back to the food rooms to get my ingredients and just to make my day even better, i opened the fridge and got a friendly hello from the cream, infact it also said hello to the floor, my tousers and my scarf...
I walked home, cooked the strudle at home. Had tea, phoned up Letty and went round there. I met Mark, he seemed alright at first. Empthasis on teh "AT FIRST" bit. Everyone was drinking apart from me so I maden them keep magic and kerrang on. I was waiting for Goo Goo Dolls to come on. It did! Then we switched it to kerrang every now and again to see if Muse was on, i love that tune! It came on twice I think. The rest of the night we were showing eachother our ringtones. Dave's were the best. We listened to the darkness sooo many times! Alana ended up going to bed at half ten, Letty ended up getting with Mark, which pissed off Dave. Dave took her upstairs, they talked, then I went up and stayed with them, after i got the hint that Sammy wasn't gonna text me back, BITCH! Mark kept wanting to get with Letty, and at this time Letty was now going out with Dave, so he gopt the hint, aftre a VERY long night! What was supposed to happen was me and Letty would be in the double bed and Mark in the single, Alana and Rich in their mums bed then Dave in Letty's room. But in the end I slept with Rich and Alana (Rich ended up hugging me in the middle of the night, scary shit!), Letty slept with Dave, and everyone had deserted Mark!
Saturday:Stayed in bed till half 2! Then just lazed around, doing theory tests in the computer, I got changed and went home, i managed to finally et out of bed at about 5! I was waiting for my mum to come and pick me up, we were watching magic at the time. The previous song had just finished and I go: I'll just stay another minute to see ig Goo Goo Dolls came on. And to my amazement it did! I ran out to see my mum there, in her sexy little metro! I came home and cathed up with my holy stuff, tidied my room and had a bath! My hair feels sooo soft! Now I've caught up on here I'll be going. Take care my little cherubs. xxxxxxxxxSammy: you have false teeth??? xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey, soz bout yesterday. I was upset! Well nothing much happened yesterday, so I'll just write about today...
I got up at 5 3 8! oops! What can I say, i love my bed! Even though I wasn't even in my bed last night, my 27 year old sister, Helen was! I had to sllep with Karen (19 year old sister) and Baby Jacob. ALL night long I heard him breastfeeding, and I wasn't even allowed to text, how rude is that??? So yeah, Frankie came round, we walked to school and that was about it. School was just school. It turns out that yesterday when Russ was having a go at me about a text it was a different Jess, so I got an apology, WOOHOO! I've read over my blog and I seriously sound obsessed with Sammy don't I? Oh well, I got 3 jax things today with his pic on so try to figure out what's gonna be stuck on my wall...
I came home, AFTER WALKING BY MYSELF! I've never been so embarrased in all my life! I went into co op to get some munch and when i was queuing up to pay I just couldn't stop smiling. there was these 2 boys sitting down and full on staring at me, then there was a girl who did the same, I got freaked out so I ended up laughing to myself, I've gotta stop doing that! And to make things worse, my shoes and homocidal and they are trying to kill me, so I tripped up infront of the boys who were looking at me:(
Came home, put on false nails, then later realised I actually couldn't do anything with them on so after lots of agony I managed to take them all off. I then had a bath, watched wifeswap, then Graham Norton (Dude, that guy is SERIOUSLY funny!)
Well gota go, Sammy's actually talking 2 me! WOOHOO
Love Y'all
PlOp
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Well I willnow know where to stop, I don't like ANYONE and I hopefully will never fall in love and I hope something good happens in my life soon, because it sure ain't good at the mo

Well todays been quite unusual...
After watching the not-so-scary film, IT, I went to bed at 3:00am!!! (That's quite late for me!)
There's 2 boys on it, I know there only 12 but they were soooo cute! One was called Eddy, he was ADORABLE! The other one was called Bill, he looked like a younger version of my 1st husband, John Rzeznik! (I got da name right, woohoo!) Yeah, and tehn they grew up...
After getting 7 hours sleep I woke up to a tiny little beep on my phone telling me to wake up, so me being me switched it off, and went to sleep for another 40 minutes. At 20 to 10 I thougth I had better get up, Me and Mum went to church and was listening to Goo Goo Dolls! WOOHOO! JOHN RZEZNIK, IM MISSING YOU BABY! Yeah anyway, I need to take hold of myself...
Yeah I went to church, I had fun, spending time with, wait for it...
MYSELF!
I came home listening to Goo Goo Dolls and I cried :(.
Me and Mum went shopping and bought full on munch! Came home, and I full on munched! lol
I had a roast and my sister wouldn't stop complaining because it was chicken gravy and not beef...
After tea we (all my sisters apart rom Monica, she's deserted us :( ) had a good old sing song, and my mum thinks I sing a better version of Iris then the Goo Goo Dolls do! You know, I am a very talented person...
I went upstairs after that and Cried, then cried a bot more. I dunno why though, probably because I think I'm in love and it's breaking my heart because I can't be with him, I seriously wish I was a bloke, you don't have to shave your legs, armpits, bikini line, ass crack, face...
Well they do but they'll gte over it!
They don't get as emotional, they don't get periods and they don't have children. It sounds like heaven!
Well anyway...
Me, Fran and Lisa went down to Will's but he wasn't in, so we walked down to the phone box and Lisa, being the wierdo she is, started talking to no one, so me being the bitch that I am got the numba and phoned up, she got really freaked out! It was hilarious. Then when we came home and we had a message on the answering machine so we listened, and it was the noise you get when you recieve a call from the phone box, and I didn't do it and no-one else had credit, scary eh?
Well then I came on her and I will now leave, YEH MAN! I got science EVERYDAY this week adn the wekk after and the week after that. That means SAMMY SAMMY SAMMY! Come to mama!
Sorry got carried away!
Gotta go
love y'all
PlOp
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Hey guys. Yesterday was well cool. I went to this thing in Newquay with the Jax crew. After much persuasion I managed to bring with me Fran and my 17 year old sister, Lisa. There wasn't enough room on the bus so Me, Fran, Ian and Dan went in John's car which was pretty cool. We listened to Red Hot Chillis and we were full on head banging, it was great! We got there and I stayed outside with Ian and Fran for a fag and this guy came up to me and asked me what I was supposed to be, I felt really stupid after that because I thought I dressed alright! I didn't even dress up lol! Yeah well, we went in and it was cool. Lights were like EVERYWHERE! People I didn't really know started talking to me which seemed pretty cool, like Cara and Kerry. They seem really nice people! It's not like I didn't think that before, it's just i'd never really talked to them...
We had to do all these activities like make stuff out of pumpkins, tied balloons to our legs and then had to stomp out others, then we kinda sellotaped loadsa newspaper to Russell to make him look like a scarecrow and he kinda fell over, whoops!
That made me cringe! His head just bounced...
After that we went outside again and Ian got egged and kinda flipped! He wanted to go fight them! But he didn't!
We then went back in and it was coming to the end. So we all left and we left the way we came. Me and Fran got dropped off before Lisa did and we had a phone call from mum and dad to say they were coming back, and they said we could stay out will 2:30 so we waited for Lisa to come back and when she did I saw Sammy, ROW! He HAS to be mine!
Then we started to walk down Will's then decided not to!
We came home, watched a couple of movies then I went bed bout 2:30, i was knackered.
I remember waking up in the middel of the night hearing my dad shout: Why is my house a guano pile?
Guano is bats poop if any of you didn't know!
Well today, nothings really happened! I woke up bout 12 - 1, went downstairs and got loadsa pressies from my parents, after that I just kinda dressed up and danced and sang alot! I love gelling my hair, it just feels so good!
Then me and Fran was going to go down Will's but his landlady was back and she's kinda barred Fran so we were to scared to go in. So we walked back and met up with the 2 Gary's.
Then we went into town, rented out 2 movies, IT (clown thing) and something else, it was really quite boring!
NEWS JUST IN
Lisa has a boyfriend, Big Gary!!! Ha ha!
We were also phoning up loads of housephones asking them stuff, like we talked to Sheila and Dave...
I've never noticed how much fun you could have witha a telephone! That sounds really dirty, I apolagise!
Well I'm going to watch IT now
So I hope your all nice and warm and I hope you can eat sweeteners, they taste really nice after 2 hours!
Oh yeah I forgot to say, the other day it was raining and I saw a rainbow, it's a sign, another Iris was born! Oh yeah, and after 3 months I've only just realised that I've been spelling my husbands name wrong! Its
's John Rzeznik, not John Rzenik! I'm really sorry darling!
Well bye guys, love y'all
PlOp
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