I have been in a metaphorical pickle for a while now, questioning the meaning of life every night at 12am, even if my alarm is set for 4:45am. Not only is it tiring, but it is upsetting and tedious also.
I have a vision though; it's as if it is a screenshot of the future in my head. Doesn't even seem fictional or even too farfetched.
I don't know whether I should do things to aid it happening? I think I'll just carry on doing whatever, and if it's meant to happen then something will unravel...
A really nice thought though, looks perfect in fact. Which is just what every person in history wants for their life. Oh I hope it does happen! Last time I had a vision like this, I genuinely, 100% thought Strider from Blazin' Squad and I were going to end up together...
That probably didn't happen just because Jess took Frankie to the concert instead of me...
High hopes. Cute, little, hairy babies.
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
Wednesday, January 09, 2013
I know it's getting harder to be you
Just thought I'd express a moment of sheer happiness.
That moment when, you're a teenage girl (obviously) who has just discovered this fabulous band that are completely new to you (well not completely new, as you saw them on music channels before, but disregarded them because of the beards - silly girl). You literally cannot stop listening to this one song, and have it on repeat for around 300 turns. You like it so much that you decide to do further research, download the majority of their songs which come at the top of 'limewire' and then give them all a listen to see if you love them too.
Weeks later, you're still crazy on the band. In fact you are so in love in with the lead singer, you watch every single video and 'screenshot' it when he looks 'cute'. You also do some bullshit edits in paint of the two of you hugging (remember; teenage girl). You do even more research, desperately wanting more so you google the discography...oh wait, there's one you haven't downloaded yet. Might check out those lyrics...
You read along through, yeah they sound nice. Oh wait a minute...there's a name in it? Oh wait! It's your bloody name!!! In black and white, on the second album. No one can take this away from you. This isn't a shit picture you've made on a shit program, this is on their record.
You scramble to download it immediately, and as it plays you follow the lyrics with great anticipation until around one and a half minutes, and there it is; the screeched confession of loving you back.
I cannot wait to see the Kings of Leon this June.
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That moment when, you're a teenage girl (obviously) who has just discovered this fabulous band that are completely new to you (well not completely new, as you saw them on music channels before, but disregarded them because of the beards - silly girl). You literally cannot stop listening to this one song, and have it on repeat for around 300 turns. You like it so much that you decide to do further research, download the majority of their songs which come at the top of 'limewire' and then give them all a listen to see if you love them too.
Weeks later, you're still crazy on the band. In fact you are so in love in with the lead singer, you watch every single video and 'screenshot' it when he looks 'cute'. You also do some bullshit edits in paint of the two of you hugging (remember; teenage girl). You do even more research, desperately wanting more so you google the discography...oh wait, there's one you haven't downloaded yet. Might check out those lyrics...
You read along through, yeah they sound nice. Oh wait a minute...there's a name in it? Oh wait! It's your bloody name!!! In black and white, on the second album. No one can take this away from you. This isn't a shit picture you've made on a shit program, this is on their record.
You scramble to download it immediately, and as it plays you follow the lyrics with great anticipation until around one and a half minutes, and there it is; the screeched confession of loving you back.
I cannot wait to see the Kings of Leon this June.
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Tuesday, January 08, 2013
I turn the music up, I got my records on
I cannot believe how many people have apologised to me in the last few months. This isn't even over little things; big fall outs which have lasted months/years. And everyone seems to have just decided to like me again in November, December and January all of a sudden?
Am I a little more endearing than I was in 2011? Have I calmed down in my annoying and loud habits? Or maybe they have just realised I was never wanted the outcome of a fallout in the first place.
I genuinely thought that maybe I was a bit mental in how I reacted to reactions...but I am glad I stood my ground. Maybe I genuinely hadn't done anything at all? Them apologising obviously meant they recognised that it was in fact them who had made us no longer talk to each other.
Don't get me wrong; I make mistakes. I know I can be annoying, and highlight problems. I don't keep things bottled up to worry about; I like to deal with things head on, it may not be the best approach, but it's only ever to reach a solution which I think is where people misunderstand me. I may well sound like an asshole, but I mentioned it because I don't like it, and I'm mentioning it so we can sort it before I end up not liking it beyond repair.
Obviously some apologies have been accepted simply to make social events less awkward, some have been welcomed with open wide arms (bloody missed you) and one hasn't been accepted at all.
Roll on 2013; where the bad people are cut out instead of slagged off. You only get 10,000,000 chances with me! (Really have bloody missed you).
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Am I a little more endearing than I was in 2011? Have I calmed down in my annoying and loud habits? Or maybe they have just realised I was never wanted the outcome of a fallout in the first place.
I genuinely thought that maybe I was a bit mental in how I reacted to reactions...but I am glad I stood my ground. Maybe I genuinely hadn't done anything at all? Them apologising obviously meant they recognised that it was in fact them who had made us no longer talk to each other.
Don't get me wrong; I make mistakes. I know I can be annoying, and highlight problems. I don't keep things bottled up to worry about; I like to deal with things head on, it may not be the best approach, but it's only ever to reach a solution which I think is where people misunderstand me. I may well sound like an asshole, but I mentioned it because I don't like it, and I'm mentioning it so we can sort it before I end up not liking it beyond repair.
Obviously some apologies have been accepted simply to make social events less awkward, some have been welcomed with open wide arms (bloody missed you) and one hasn't been accepted at all.
Roll on 2013; where the bad people are cut out instead of slagged off. You only get 10,000,000 chances with me! (Really have bloody missed you).
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Saturday, January 05, 2013
What is it with you and sport?
Sometimes I like to actually stick to my New Years resolutions...a whole year and not a single cigarette. Not a sausage, or even a drag!
I really do hope I can fulfill my next one throughout 2013; to work hard and be nice to people. I want to be respected and get things done, as well as having a clear conscience. All is going well so far; I've been trying to throw myself into situations I would have usually flat out avoided. They may not have always been successful, but I did then anyway! And it resulted in me coming home and crying... I've also only slagged off Debbie, but that's only because, honestly, no one gives a shit if you're allergic to nuts. Plus I wanted a text from Lucy :).
Today, well, recently has been quite a struggle. I am very much going through a mid twenty crisis. I am absolutely terrible with regards to believing the term "the grass is always greener on the other side". I have got to realise that even if I was on the other side, I would just as much want to be here. I have got to start enjoying what I have got and making the most of it.
Or I could save all my money, run off to Alaska and then die in an abandoned minibus because I identified an edible plant incorrectly...
I have a lot to do to grow, and I have a lot to do to improve. But I also have a lot to look forward to. Bring it on .
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I really do hope I can fulfill my next one throughout 2013; to work hard and be nice to people. I want to be respected and get things done, as well as having a clear conscience. All is going well so far; I've been trying to throw myself into situations I would have usually flat out avoided. They may not have always been successful, but I did then anyway! And it resulted in me coming home and crying... I've also only slagged off Debbie, but that's only because, honestly, no one gives a shit if you're allergic to nuts. Plus I wanted a text from Lucy :).
Today, well, recently has been quite a struggle. I am very much going through a mid twenty crisis. I am absolutely terrible with regards to believing the term "the grass is always greener on the other side". I have got to realise that even if I was on the other side, I would just as much want to be here. I have got to start enjoying what I have got and making the most of it.
Or I could save all my money, run off to Alaska and then die in an abandoned minibus because I identified an edible plant incorrectly...
I have a lot to do to grow, and I have a lot to do to improve. But I also have a lot to look forward to. Bring it on .
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