Well once again I'm online and Tabby's deserted me for dinner, my smiley central is still being incredibly rude so I can't add pictures, I'll try again... ... finally! Well once again I just woke up! I wanna give Leon a huage hug for all the songs he sent me yesterday, I LOVE YOU!!!! Well yeah.. they really do mean alot to me! Memories.. weep weep. Tabby... my new years resolutions are:
1. Give up smoking
2. Become a Christian
3. Stop swearing
4. Actually be nice
5. Grow hair
6. Loose virginity
hehe, I want them all real bad. This night was supposed to break my v plates, but I've just came on, how typical???
Love you all
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Well no ones online :(. So I'm talking to tis guy called Danny because I have no one to go out with on New Years Eve, so I might walk to North East Linc so I do have someone :(. Well better go
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Greetings. I didn't actually write what I did yesterday, but it was very boring! Went into town, met Letty, got photos developed from Halloween, ate chips went home. Well todays been REALLY exciting!!! I woke up at 3, I ate a cheese toastie,and now I'm on here! Well I'm going now. Love Y'all
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That actually describes me!!! I'll do just one more, because I'll go skitz! It's a wierd one... I'm now waiting for the results... and now I'm still waiting ...
You're Tigger. Playful and fun-loving, you enjoy
hanging out with friends even though you don't
always have to be the center of attention.
You're never pessimistic or sluggish. Your
enthusiasm is at once endearing and
over-the-top. You're the quintessential
extrovert.


Which famous feline are you?
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BUT I HATE TIGGER! HE DOES MY NUT IN!!!

Wow... this one looks interesting... what colour am I? Bare in mind I love rainbows... wait a second and let me do it!!! Wow, I'm now waiting for the results...

you are darkviolet #9400D3

Your dominant hues are blue and magenta. You're the one who goes to all the parties but doesn't quite fit in at every one... you know what you want, but are afraid of what the world might think of it. You're a little different and that's okay with them, and if you're smart it's okay with you too. Your saturation level is very high - you are all about getting things done. The world may think you work too hard but you have a lot to show for it, and it keeps you going. You shouldn't be afraid to lead people, because if you're doing it, it'll be done right. Your outlook on life is brighter than most people's. You like the idea of influencing things for the better and find hope in situations where others might give up. You're not exactly a bouncy sunshine but things in your world generally look up.

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I'm a geek????? . Actually, what is a geek? Someone who works hard? Someone who does things that no one else does? Someone who makes what other people don't? I'm completely spun out... hehe! But I still have humour...

I like wearing funny hats!!!

And I've just done another, If I want to be a lawyer when I'm older, does that make me evil???

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What political party are you?
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I just did a quiz thing ok???
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Hey, well yesterday was horrible , I'm back to the usual smileys now... Me and Ian had fun waiting for the party to come, we played volleyball with a balloon . After that we recorded ourselves dancing to Michael Jackson, it was so funny, it included: Billy Jean, Earth Song, Smooth Criminal, Thriller and the other one that I really like... what is it??? ... GOT IT! Don't Stop Till You Get Enough... something like that anyway!!! . After that we went to the party. I filmed us making our way through... then I filmed Ian having a fag, I found it extremely boring!!! hehehe! Well yeah, we went in, we sat down with Russell. He wasn't singing Iris though, he sang Nickleback, How You Remind Me. Which is totally rude . Well yeah, the first game was this balloon popping thing, Ian went in it so I was left alone . When we had dinner (earlier on, before the party) he said that if I sat in the room with him he would never leave me. Well he Ian played the game so I sat with Stacey. After that was another game, you had to "mingle" on the floor and when Cally (the leader lady) shouted out a number you had to get into groups of that number, so in the first round I did it, got dragged into one group then deserted because there wasn't enough people, whilst doing this after being punched in the head by the pastor . So I was out on the first go. After that we were in this game and you had to go with a boy, so I went with Ian. We had to do something like when they shouted "cavalry" Ian had to lift me up, when they shouted "horseback" I had to jump on his back and when they shouted "knight" I had to sit on his lap. Ian is like anorexic, and I'm quite big so it was so funny seeing him lift me up! We came third!!! After him trying to lift me up resulted in him putting his hand up my skirt . After that they got into groups and had to do this wheelbarrow thing, had to eat something then come back. Luckily for me I had to judge them to see if they went over the line, I really appreciated this job, Gary spat this yellow THING at me! It was gross... . After that they got into REALLY big groups adn they had to find something then rush it into the centre. One of the things were to find someone with their belly pierced and carry them into the middle. No One else had their belly pierced! I should of said something, I was the only one with it done!!! ... um not quite!!! Well yeah, after that was munchimoos. I managed yesterday to eat only my advent calendar and 6 ferroro roches! I'm so proud of myself. I'm 8 and a half stone, remember that! Then next week I'll weigh myself again, and see waht I am. I know its a only a day of "dieting" but you can already see the difference! hopefully I'll be like Ian soon! I wish you could put photos an this thing, you probably can but I can't because I'm stupid. When everyone else was eating I was talking to Russ. He said that if I wrote the lyrics for Iris then they would do it. After I had done it, Russ and Ian laughed at me adn said that they wouldn't. So I gave Tanzina they lyrics. After that was the cavalray or something liek that. It had people singing and stuff. I recorded that aswell! Claire, Carri Anne, Collette and Heather sang, all was good but Heather was REALLY good, she sounded exactly like Britney Spears. . Oh how embarrassing! My sister is singing to the Buffy Musical... . Yeah well... back to last night, then Dan did this magic trick thing, great fun!!! Then Ian, Russ, some dude called Sam, Sammy, Danny, Joe (I think thats it!) I can't remember the dude on the drums...
did Nickelback. It was good, Ian just looked really pathetic because the main singer, Sam, was really good and he like didn't let Ian join in, it looked so funny! After that we went home. Letty phoned me, she was drunk and she had pulled some lad from London and she sang. I woke up to Letty ringing me!!! . She told me about her spewing over Alana, Rich, and the wall! I'm soooooooooooooooooooo proud of her!!! I will tell you why new years, it would of been a year since then... I went on here last night, then I went to bed. I've had a shower and I'm feeling fresh.
Well I better be going, Letty is coming round soon. Bye guys xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Greetings!!! I'm here with Ian . We've returned from church, it was great fun!! Christians electricuted eachother and had fights, then my mum fell asleep, when she woke up she was dribbling everywhere ! It was extrememly funny though! A song that I loved came on, so I gto up and sang, then Ian started to love it, it was great! We had caramel shortcake then came home. . We went to safeways and my mum is officially a criminal!! She bought Ian cigarettes , when she went in, me and Ian put up the base in mums metro and we were full on "boogying" it was great fun... wait a sec, I got to find that dude... , Ian looks exactly like him! We came home, I have yet a different phone and now were on here, later on we'll be going to a party. I'll write more after that.
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Hey. Last night was pretty cool. My bestest mate in the hole wide world , well yeah... Ian rang me and we talked about Sunday, he's going to come round mine after church and then were going to dress up really proper , I can't wait! On the phone I told him to go online so I could talk to him for longer. As we were talking I noticed that he wasn't writing back to me very fast, so I asked him who else he was talking to and he said Bowie, I told him to add him to the conversation, so at the end of the night I was reunited with the love of my life from 5 years ago! And I had made 4 friends! Me and Russ were talking until 3. It was well cool. He's helped me to become a "holy", he prayed for me, so now I'm working on it, and I'm trying at it really hard aswell. I've seen the others, they are all seem so happy, I want to be like that. I want the relationship. , hehe! That means God is great, which he is! Well nothing happened today, but my Mommi bought me the Muse album Oh I love her!!!
Well better be going
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Tabby, thank you for the answers, but is it toffee fingers or toffee pennies you like? And the best way to die on the sims is make them swim then take away the steps... or put them in a room and take away the door... all great fun!!! . I might go up Safeways later to get my photos developed, don't know yet. Take care hunnies xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Hey guys! I know it sounds stupid, and I know that it's only a computer... but I've missed you!!! . Last night Letty came round so I went home with her. We watched City Of Angels, my parents bought it for me, and Legally Blond 2, which is Letty's. City Of Angels is such a beautiful film! And to top it off Iris is the theme song to it, the video is shown at the end . I fell asleep half way through Legally Blond. We woke up really late, then we came back to mine to get my money and my photos developed because I've got loads to get through! But Safeways wasn't open so I'll have to get them done tomorrow . Me and Letty did facepacks this morning, it was well cool! Aaron, her brother, took photos of us so when they are developed it'll be pretty funny. Well after that we cleaned the house, I watched some of the Grinch, but it was too scary and I came home. . My sister Monica and her boyfriend Mark are down! They bought me 2 presents . One was huge! And the other was kind of tiny... Well I opened the small one, and to my delight it was my 150th pair of piglet socks! But these were different... These come above my knees! , hehe, mine aren't that thin though! The huge one was a suitcase full of make up! It's great! I just can't wait for tomorrow to experiment... hehe...
Well nothing else has really happened. I'll write more tomorrow.
Love you all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx hehe! Oh yeah, me and Letty played monopoly, and I kicked her ass!
Everyone who's my friend who writes a blog I want you to do this:
Fav quality street: strawberry creme
Fav monopoly piece: iron
Fav monopoly street: The pink Ones!!
He he, I'm sad...
love u xx

Hey again. I'm just writing to say sorry and thank you. This morning, I didn't appreciate anything that was put infront of me, but I've just read my friend's (well I think he is, Leon) blog and I've realised how important family actually are. I don't know the case with other people, but I know thatm if I ever fall back my parents will always be there to catch me. I mean come on, this year they gave me a pair of pointy blue shoes and a video camera for fuck sake! They know I love recording and they have only done what I have reflected off myself. Well I'm sorry to all the people who I make them feel bad (that do't make sense, but you know what I mean!) and I want to thank all the people who has made me feel bad, it's like Christina Aguilera's song, fighter. Well I've found this amazing song, so, as usual, I must share!!!

GOO GOO DOLLS


"Here Is Gone"


You and I got somethin
But it's all and then it's nuthin to me, yeah
And I got my defenses
When it comes through your intentions for me, yeah

And we wake up in the breakdown
With the things we never thought we could be, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

I am no solution
To the sound of this pollution in me, yeah
And I was not the answer
So forget you ever thought it was me, yeah

I'm not the one who broke you
I'm not the one you should fear
We got to move you darlin
I thought I lost you somewhere
But you were never really ever there at all

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I dont need the fallout
Of all the past that's in between us
And I'm not holding on
And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling
And I wanted to be
All you need
Somehow here is gone

And I want to get free
Talk to me
I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
And I can feel you falling

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

I know it's out there
I know it's out there
Somehow here is gone, yeah

hehe! It's on the album Tabby gave to me. Also I love this song...

GOO GOO DOLLS


It's Over

And I didn't think about
All the ways I hurt you and myself
And I hide
Wouldn't say a thing to you
I keep it to myself and my mind
I can't stand without you
And I won't find the answers when you're gone

But it's over to you
And I can't find the answers when you're gone
And it's over to you
And you can't find the answer where you are

And you know
(And you know)
I need you now
This ain't easy to admit
And no one needs to know
What goes on behind the door in my room
I'm peeking through the walls in my mind
And I can't stand without you
I won't find the answers when you're gone

But it's over to you
And I can't find the answers when you're gone
And it's over to you
And you can't find the answers where you are

I will tear you down
I will tear you down
To get into the world you wanted
I'm kicking through the wall
No one can believe in things that never change

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And it's over to you
And I can't find the answers when you're gone
And I can't find the answers when you're gone
And I can't find the answers when you're gone

WOW!!! On the site I get it from you can get the music! I'm so gonna get it then play it on what ever instrument!!!

I also like this one, sorry but I really wanna share my life with you all! hehe! Again... think of Little Moe's grunt... Oh Dear! Eastenders is on in a minute, will Kat marry Alfie??? ... not quite, anyway... song...

GOO GOO DOLLS


Big Machine

Ecstacy is all you need
Living in the big machine now
Oh, you're so vain
Now your world is way too fast
Nothin's real and nothing lasts
And I'm aware

I'm in love but you don't care
Turn your anger into lust
I'm still here, but you don't trust at all
And I'll be waiting

Love and sex and loneliness
Take what's yours and leave the rest
So I'll survive
God, it's good to be alive

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And I'm torn in pieces
I'm lyin there waiting for
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you

Silly love with all your sins
Wait and stop and I begin
And I'll - I'll be waitin'
Livin' like a house on fire
What you fear is your desire
It's hard to deal
I still love the way you feel

Now this angry little girl
Drownin in this petty world
And I'm who you run to
Swallow all your bitter pills
That's what makes you beautiful
You're all a lie
I won't leave what you ain't got

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I'm blind and waiting for you
I'm blind and waiting for you

And I can't believe it's coming true
God, it's good to be alive
I'm still here and waitin' for you
And I can't believe it's coming true
I'm blind and waiting for you

You really need to hear his voice though to really admire the song. Well I'll be back soon
Love Y'all
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