And I'm still single. Still friends with Tab, Pig and the rest of the crew...
The last few weeks have been weird, seeing Paul again made me just like him even more. Recieving a text from Matt has reminded me of the two weeks that were just amazing, and talking to Alex; the guy I fell in love with, and yet again Jess is heartbroken.
Today has been tearful. I've been crying all day. I've finally realised I'm no longer Jess Sturt at all. I have completely new friends, completely different lifestyle, but yet I still can't let people go.
Why am I so vulnerable to loving people? I get so jealous...so clingy. No wonder why Alex hates me.
I've been told I'm never going to be loved. Thanks for that scorpiomale@hotmail.com
And why is it that everything reminds me of Alex, actually everything. I can't go through one slow song without breaking down.
It's getting ridiculous.
I am nothing but a teenage girl that feels like her world is being torn apart. I'm not the first, and by far not the last. But I wish I could.
I just have to keep telling myself that theres going to be so many more times like this in the future, worse no doubt. How am I going to be able to cope?
I'm not going to be able to.
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