I swear, if my comp suddenly crashes I will beat the shit out of it! I am officially the world's most pissed off teenager. My day has been shit right from the start and that's how it's goona end. I'm bullied continuously about my hair, yeah I have a blokes haircut and yeah my voice is weird, but I don't ask you to critisize me. I have no friends and the only ones I do are after the guy I've fallen madly in love with. I can't handle anything and I just wanna get off this fucking earth. Why does everything seem to be bad in my life. It seems like everything is poured out on me. I really don't wanna have to go through anything else, I cried through a maths lesson. I need a fag. I need a life. I need a reason to go on and I sure as hell need a decent haircut.
Here's the lyrics to the most perfect song in the world. I think it describes me best at the moment:
The Young And The Hopeless


Hard days make me
Hard nights shake me
I don't know this soul must save me
And i know im making something out of this life they call nothing
Take what i want
take what i need
they say it's wrong, but its right for me
I wont look down
Wont say im sorry
I know that only god can judge me


[Chorus]
And if i make it through today
Will tomorrow be the same
Am i just running in pace
And if i stumble and i fall
Should i get up and carry on
Will it all just be the same
Cause im young and im hopeless
im lost and i know this
im going nowhere fast thats what they say
im troublesome im falling
im angry at my father
its me agaisnt this world and i dont care
i dont care


And no one in this industry
understands the life i lead
when i sing about my past
its not a gimmick, not an act
These critics, and these trustfront kids
trying to tell me what punk is
but when i see them on the street they got nothing to say


[Chorus]
And if i make it through today
Will tomorrow be the same
Am i just running in pace
And if i stumble and i fall
Should i get up and carry on
Will it all just be the same
Cause im young and im hopeless
im lost and i know this
im going nowhere fast thats what they say
im troublesome and falling
im angry at my father
its me agaisnt this world and i dont care
i dont care i dont care...and now i dont care
oooooo ooooo oooooo


im young and im hopeless
im lost and i know this
im going nowhere fast thats what they say
that im troublesome and falling
im angry at my father
its me agaisnt this world and i dont care
i dont care. i dont care. i dont care.

And this is the most beautiful song in the world. It's without a doubt the most beautiful song I've ever heard and if anyone ever disses it I will die.


GOO GOO DOLLS



Iris

And I'd give up forever to touch you
'Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
'Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you're alive And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am (break and solo) And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am And I don't want the world to see me
'Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am


Well gotta go now. I need some sleep, I've got college tomorrow with the friend that always calls me "fat ass". Well bye