Wales was fun, a shame about the company

Well, I was REALLY excited about going to Wales, because it would just be a huge piss up and be a great way to meet loads of new people.

So yeah, Will picked me up and we all cruised along to Wales, it was rather funny along the way, Will would go the different direction to what Moley had said, but we finally reached our destination.

We put the tent up, unpacked and stuff then went for some food...later we went for a cruise, then went to the beer tent for a while and I was just getting pissed off with Will. There was these thigs where you could text in and there was a big screen to show them all, and Will texted a message like "i love you jess sturt luv will x x x" and "you dont know how much you mean to me jess" and I was like...arg...for fat snakes!

Well he started throwing grass at me, I got pissed off, then we went back to the tent and we slept, I was freezing as the duvet kept being nicked off of me!

So yeah, I had finally got to sleep at around 3 after the music had all stopped and the friendly people behind us had stopped shouting "Aaron". God I wanted to kill whoever he was. So yeah, we got up about 6, was shouted out by the "Happy Camper Boys". They said "good morning, happy campers!" It was hilarious...then got changed and off to the Royal Welsh Show we went!

It was about a mile to walk, then when we got there we had to walk around everywhere. Saw lots of animals and collected lots of booklets filled with useless information. So yeah. There was this guy theren with glasses on, I looked behind me about 3 times to see him...we held eye contact a couple of times and then we smiled :) Shame I'll never see him again...

We got back to the tent, Nicki and I went to the toilet, where we had a laugh with one of the security guards due to the lack of toilet paper. It was hilarious when he said: "a man's gotta do what a man's gotta do".

Later I saw this security guard again, he walked past my tent and looked back at me, so I smiled, but he just stared at me whilst walking for ages, kinda giving me the look of "I'm going to be with you tonight". It was ace recieving something like that.

And then I thought that I would make friends with the red tent boys (Happy Campers). So first I just shouted to them
Me: Hey Boysie, are you Welsh?
James: Yeah, why?
Me: Just wondering
James: Are you?
Me: No
James: Where you from?
Me: Cornwall
*walks over*

So yeah, that's how I made friends with James, 17. Also with Daniel, 18, Hugh, 19 and Davan,18. They were really cool, Nicki, Jason and Will ended up coming over and chatting to them too.

All good things soon came to an end when Moley decided to continuously touch me...Nicki got pissed off and she went off to the tent with him. Will was busy talking to Davan, Hugh and Daniel so I was speaking to James.

James: I think Will fancies you
Me: You think? He's told me loves me
James: Oh, that would explain a lot
Me: Yeah, he pisses me off
James: Wanna make him jealous?
Me: How?
James: Come to the back of my tent with me, we won't do anything but I want to get to know you
*gives me chewing gum*
Me: Nah, I gotta keep him sweet, he's my only lift home and I'm scared he'll leave me here if I piss him off
James: If he does that I'll kick the shit outta him
and things continued on like that...

Then Nicki called me over to say that Moley had been sick, so I tried calling Will over but he was too obsessed with his new friends.

When the boys had gone, after James had stared at me around 16 times, Will was shouitng at Moley telling him to go out and stuff, and that he would feel better standing up and stuff. Just being a complete and utter japseye. Well yeah, Will ended up going out by himself, so me and Nicki helped Moley sober up by smoking all of Will's fags then we spent the rest of the night slagigng him off, sad I'm sure, but theraputic :)

Then we saw a shadow at the side of the tent...someone was trying to undo the zip so I screamed and then they walked off, it was Will's shadow. He had heard what we had said about him. He came back later claiming that it wasn't hikm, but his little friend...yeah Will...and...you have a chance with me?

So yeah, I REALLY didn't want to sleep so early so I sat outside and then I saw a skirted body in James's tent. He must of been the one who had pulled because the others weren't exactly stunning. At that point I just thought...I'll go to sleep then...and I did.

I managed to get to sleep alot easier today, and I wasn't as cold as I had a lot of the duvet. I woke up about half 5, changed my socks then went back to sleep. For an hour. Then I woke up, went down to the toilets, changed myself.

Went to the Royal show again, met up with Beanie and Urn this time. Will's older brothers. We watched them shear, it was what I would call boring, I almost fell asleep watching the shearing competetion...again...but Urn's friend, Jonesy, was rather fit...

We left the show and got back to out tent, Will, Nicki and Moley decided to go to sleep so I just sat there in my tent and festered for a really long time, then James and Daniel were at the tent so they came over, at that point Will woke up, then Moley and Nicki did so we went shopping.

I got a big bottle of Taboo and a bottle of Sidekick enough for 14 shots. I halved the bottle of Taboo with Nicki, after that I was feeling well pissed, my favourite security guard kept walking past and peering into the tent, God I wanted him! So yeah, it got to the stage of me singing, falling over in the tent and ringing up Tab telling her I love her.

I got dressed into my skirt, put my boots on and let my hair down, we were off to the tent.

I walked straight past James' tent, I wanted to play hard to get.

So yeah, we got there and we sat down, I asked Will if he would mind if I talked to the guys behind us, he said that they'll just think I'm a weirdo, so I thought: I'll prove you wrong you jealous twat.

So I went up to them, his name was Rod and he didn't think I was a weirdo, but he wasn't exactly the greatest person to have a conversation with...so I went on to the group of black security guards.

The tall one laughed at me, the one with long hair just wanted to know where I lived and the other talked to me about A-Levels and stuff like that...but he was a dude. They fucked off soon enough though.

Then me and Nicki went back to our tent for her to get changed into a skirt, I saw my Simon security guard so I gave him a little smile, God he was gorgeous. So yeah, we got back to the tent, whilst Nicki changed I had some more of my Sidekick, then when we lift we saw James and all crew. So I linked arms with James after being molested by al his friends. When it came to Nicki's turn she freaked out and told them all she was taken and engaged. They laughed at this and mocked her due to her age of 13. So, when we got back to the beer tent thingy we left them lot.

Nicki told Moley what had happened and started crying...I would of gone mad if he's done anything to them. Well yeah, Beanie and Urn needed our bracelets to get in for free, so me and Nicki had to take them off in the toilets then like, hug Will to give them to him.

After we had done that I started speaking to the security guys near the toilets, Reece and Simon were their names. Simon was gorgeous and spoke to me alot, Reece wasn't that talkative. I explained my situation to Simon about Will The Rapist Braund, and he gave him that name. I really wish I had got his number or something, he was great and entertained me. However, their boss came and shouted at them for talking to me...so I found Will and this was the time of Beanie and Urn to be coming in. So we saw them come in, followed them to the beer tent, and then socialised.

Urn and his friend Jonesy (the really fit 30 year old sheep shearer person) would not leave me alone. Urn was touching my legs and ass constantly and was asking for a shag. I said no. Obviously. I had Jonesy behind me just like, talking things into my ear...he soon gave up though. I went to the toilet with Nicki, where we opened a door with a guy in there...I don't know what he was doing but when he came out he warned me not to go in there...

So yeah, we walked back and Urn was doing something with his legs...I asked him what he was doing and he said that my sexy walk has seduced him or something...he then went on to ask me what music I like and that James Blunt is really sexual and makes people in the mood...

I then decided I wanted to go, I wanted to hang out with James for the last night. So yeah, I left, but they didn't give me another band as I had already got one before. So yeah...as I walked past Simon the security guard he wolf whistled at me, fucking cute!

I eventually got back to the tent, after all the shouting from men, I just got in, lied in and then realised that I had made a big mistake. I wouldn't be allowed back in and James wasn't back, so I was going to be alone.

So after more alocohol consumption, I went back there. Through the fence I was screaming Will's name, but he didn't see me. So I went back to the entrance, no one would let me in so I just kinda stayed there...and stared.

Then I just thought, Simon here I come. So I stayed with Simon from about 1 til 2'o clock, he was great to me. He said I didn't look 16 :) We talked about loads of things, but one time he asked me to move on again because of his boss, so I did then I started speaking to this other security guy who looked really, really happy, it was scary. I introduced myself then we laughed hysterically at a policeman (or heddlu, said like: hetherleigh) who had toilet roll attached to his shoe, my new friend said: "It would be funnier if it was hanging out his trousers"

At that point I waled back to Simon, then told him the little story. His mates came and one asked if I was his girlfriend...he said no pretty quickly...but I took no offence. Well about 5 men talked to me as they walked past me when everyone was coming out. Here's a list of what was said.

Bloke #1: Where have you been all my life?
Me: Cornwall?

Bloke #2: Where's your boyfriend?
Me: I don't have one
Bloke #2: What are you talking about? Where are you from?
Me: Cornwall
*kisses my hand*
Bloke #2: Are you having fun?
Me: Yes I am thanks
Bloke #2: Well I must go now, take care of yourself
*kisses my forhead, then attempts to kiss my lips*
Me: No
Bloke #2: Take care of yourself
*kisses my hand*
*walks off and falls over*
Me: You too...

Bloke #3: Fancy a ride?
Me:...no
Bloke #3: You like a bit of muscle

Simon: Oh the chat up lines people use today! Do they work on you?
Me: No...

And I was just thinking...just use a chat up line on me you fucking sexy man!!

Bloke #4: Isn't it cold to be wearing a skirt?
Me: Yes
Bloke #4: (Really aggresively) What?
Me: I said yes...
Bloke #4: Oh right...

And then I saw Will coming, so I told Simon and he told me to have a good night, and that he hoped Will wouldn't rape me. I shook his hand and that was when I realised I would never see my new best friend again, and I was unhappy about it :(

So I walked back with Will, Nicki and Moley, when we got back to the tent I really didn't want to sleep there, so I went down to James' tent and Rob was outside, I asked him if I could stay there with him, then all of them came back. Throughout the night, I was hanging out with:
James (looked like Alan Shearer)
Hugh
Davan (looked like Leon Pugh)
Daniel (looked like Richard Shearing)
Tom
David (looked like Kelvin Shadrick)
Aaron (looked Craig Skelly, but fitter)
Boysie (gave me fags)
Rob (annoyed the hell out of me)
Dewi ( was funny as fuck, and wrote on my breasts with eye liner)
Fitty( can't remember his name, but he hardly spoke)

So yeah, the night consisted of fighting with the guys next door, but nothing serious happened. When it started to rain I offered Aaron my jacket, and it was then when I found out that he was the one I wanted to kill a couple of nights before, Aaron then came sat by me and he gave me the jacket back and put his arm round me as I was shaking. I made him shake :)

Our conversation then went something like.
Aaron: Can you give me a kiss?
Me: No
Aaron: Why?
Me: I'm gay
Aaron: Sweet! That's something I would like to see

A couple of mintues later...

Me: I'm not really gay
Aaron: Well I think you're gorgeous
Me: I think you're stunning
Aaron: Well, why can't I have a kiss then?
Me: I just can't
*I kiss his cheek*
I said no because I was told earlier by James that he wanted me, and I had been flirting with James for the last couple of days so I thought it would be rude to just get with his mate...

Then we all decided to get in the tent so in the back there was Rob, Hugh, James, Me, Dewi and Davan. In the front porch bit there was Daniel and Aaron.

So yeah, we stayed up all night talking about absolutely everything, I kissed all of the guys on the cheek... and yes I did get with James and it wasn't exactly the most delightful thing in the world...I wish that I had just got with Aaron, he probably wouldn't of licked my face and stuff.

So yeah, it got to about 5 in the morning and Rob had gone back to his own tent, Davan and Aaron were asleep and James wouldn't stop touching me. Dewi made me laugh so much, he really was a great person. I wish that I had gone to sleep as when it got to about 6 everyone else was, and it was just me and Daniel left awake and as I was now sober, there was nothing I could do to start conversation. Aaron soon woke up, and then Dewi but they were talking in Welsh and I didn't have a clue what they were going on about. I hated it.

I was just waiting for someone from my tent to wake up so I could go back there. I had a little laugh with the guys in the morning, but it really felt like I shouldn't of been there, I think they wanted me to go...so yeah, when I saw Moley go into the toilets I kinda said...bye! Then rushed back to the tent.

Urn was there, so I had to quickly jump into Will's side of the tenet and I got changed, when I was pulling my trousers up Urn woke up, and then Will did. Urn said I was still pissed...I wasn't though. I then went down to the toilets, as I walked past James' tent I was just like: Hi! And they were being nice.

As I was waiting outside the toilet, Dewi, Aaron and Daniel walked past and they said: YOu can't even trust people like her. I think they were just saying it because I was standing ther...but meh...

So yeah, went to the toilet, came back and Urn was still chatting away to me, I was just like...whatever.

Will got in a shitty when I told him I got with James :D It was great. The kisses wasn't but you know what I mean... So yeah, we saw them walk past the tent a couple of times, Will said hello to them as they would always say hello back, but this time only Davan did.

So...Urn left, Beanie came up and started swaying, it was hilarious. Then we packed up and put our tent away and stuff and I really didn't wanna go, but I didn't show it. We then took all our things to the car , I didn't even get a chnace to say goodbye to James and the other firneds I had made.

And that was it, we were off, on the stretch of road that takes us to the main road I made eye contact with the security guard I would always see...for the last time.

On the way home I slept for most of it as I had no sleep the night before. I really wish I had got James' number or something because Hugh said he would bring them down to see me again. They were saying how we were Jesse and James from Pokemon, I really loved those guys, they were hilarious.

But, I am at home now, and there is going to be no way that I will see them again...unless they are there next year... :D

I am not happy

I'm so hot and my skin is burning and my feet are in so much pain I just want to cut them off.

I'm pissed off at the world for ignoring me.

Why am I such a japs eye?

Die die die

Lisa it's your birthday, Happy Birthday to you

The title really reminds me of science lessons...good old Steph.

I really miss school, I really wanna go back...

Mr King no longer beeps at me when he drives past :( Does he know it's me? I bet he's just playing hard to get.

I have a sweaty moustache. This weather is annoying. Throughout the day it's so hot that it causes blisters to form on your feet, so you take the shoes off and then walk bear-footed, only to realise that the tarmac is so hot you have to dance across the road at a very fast speed just to make sure you still have feet when you reach the destination.

Then Pig wouldn't let me have my feet out, so he handed me a pair of socks, which later fused to the bloody blisters and stuck to all the rest of my sweaty feet.

Then...when you wanna go to sleep you have to throw your duvet to the ground as if you even touch it you will get so incredibly hot that you will die. You will. You open a window, but all you can hear is festering hedgehogs at a Hen Night. You can do nothing but stay up to 3 in the morning, then just drift off to sleep...dreaming of running through mud in a beautiful dress with your friends who you've grown up with.

I love you Lettie and Alana.

A very happy unbirthday to you...to you! I watched Alive in Wonderland the other week, I still know the majority of the words, and the walrus still scares the shit outta me.

I love the Kings Of Leon so much. CALEB FOLLI...shit...what's his last name again?

CALEB FOLLOHILL? I'll browse on google a second...

CALEB FOLLOWILL, I love thee...

Alot...

That's all folks

*wipes sweaty moustache*

Next month. Completely shit.

Well, these last couple of days have been rather turd. It's been great being with Tab more, fucking hilarious infact, just things with Will are getting boring.

I wanna go out with some other people more, like Hairy and Jeremy, why do we always have to be with Moley and Nicki? I mean, yeah they are great, but it would just be better if we did something different for a change.

Good God, I found Billy Corgan on Myspace...and he's a friend :D

When I found out Jenn had found someone famous I felt the need to so the same...but I've won one over her as I'm his friend :) But I think he just says yes to anyone...oh well :)

Monica and Mark are coming down today, so I'm supposed to be tidying my room, but I've got bov. My tv won't work so I can't listen to "The Bucket" on repeat for 3 hours.

I was talking to Smay earlier on, through msn, and he mentioned how he had just ate a sandwich, so I told him how hungry I was. His mum then asked where I lived and stuff...10 mintues later and Smay's at my door with a cheese toastie.

Fucking ace.

Chucklevision

Well I was round Pig's yesterday, and we had nothing to do so we watched Chucklevision. It was hilarious. First I told him that I could play the theme tune on the keyboard, then I told him that I wanted it as a ring tone.

Imagine that, fucking hilarious.

/Kthanxbye

Don't look back into the sun

Well, my days have been very fulfilled these last couple of days.

I turned 20 acres of grass with Will :D It was boring...but we listenend to the radio all day so I was happy.

Tonight is my prom! I'm going to have a bath at half 3, Gina should be here by then, she'll do my hair and stuff. Then I'll get changed, Will will pick me up and ba-da, I'll look like a twat with curls.

I'm still feeling affects from last night. Oh God how I must of acted like a twat, with straight but recently dyed hair.

When Will dropped me off, I REALLY liked him hugging me, so I went inside, watched some Big Brother then I realised it had actually been a couple of weeks since I last masturbated.

So I did it. And for the first time in about a year, it was over a guy! I managed to complete it aswell! Usually I only manage to get half way then I have to finish it off by thinking of bisexual women.

God I'm so proud. I had a dream that I wanted Will. No. No. No.

Jeremy didn't ring me yesterday...at all...it's the first time in about a month, oh well. I saw him yesterday.

Still refuses to talk to me in front of Amy...

I saw your ugly brother last night, it reminded me of how much I hate you

Well last night was good. Got fucked mate innit.

I was throwing up all over the dancefloor, I rubbed my leg against Lettie's mum's ear then I sucked Tabby's thumb until it turned blue and fell off.

It's all a lie. But it was quite a good night, which mostly consisted of laughing at Aaron. Not just his dancing, or his leaking ear, just generally him! When I came home I couldn't sleep! It was just far too hot; no underwear for me! I slept with a sheet and with the windows open.

I was very horny.

Waiting for Will's phonecall now, so that I can go be just a little bit more socialable.

Thank you

I attended my best friends wedding today

It was short but great, she looked amazing! Her breasts looked rather oddly shaped, but she was still stunning none-the-less.

Tab came over, we walked there, sat there whilst all of Lettie's relatives who we didn't know arrived, and they liked to stare at us...

Then we went to sit down, I tried not to laugh at the facial features of the camera man (Mr Piggy) and the quite literally huge boil behind Aaron's ear, which was leaking yellow gunk :|

Well yeah, it was quite quick, but it managed to contain the moment of "The Best Man Dropping The Ring" and "Wrong Track On Cheap Cd Player Which Was Being Used As They Walked Out" and the good old one which I loved..."Frankie Dropping the Confetti On The Floor Before Lettie Walking Outside, Then Blaming It On Jess When Someone Asks Her About It"

I came home, got my stuff ready for the extremely hardcore after-marriage party which I will be attending at 6pm later tonight.

Will better pick me up dammit! Otherwise I might have to ask Jeremy, which will be sucky because he fucking sucks because he chose his girlfriend who he's been with for over 9 months over me. But she cheated on him. And he believes her when she only told him that she was cheating on him to "make him jealous". What about this, darling, I saw you with the fucking guy! I wish I could take photos...

And to think, he was the one who got me to go to the festering meal "Mew! I want you to go" Bad mate! I go and you just ignore me, and the only time you don't is when you slap my ass or pretend to be best friends with me when you have clearly fucked me off.

And I think you should tell me that "I would of been with you ages ago if it wasn't for all teh complications" Why tell me now? If you liked me THAT much then you wouldn't of let things get between us.

Yeah I'm pissed off...

Tell me that it's over

Yeah I'm listening to that Lindsay Lohan song, I seem to like American birds singing about shit relationships.

Oh well, that's just the way I am.

Yesterday was mehhy...if you get what I mean, woke up, went to Pig's, bathed for a while, came home, had a bath, cried, watched Benders, got picked up, went bowling, went skulking, came home, slept.

Me no like :( Things have started to get boring again. I just want Jem to come in tonight so I can just see him...but I don't think he wants to see me, it's all complicated because no one wants to see me happy :)

Yes I'm the opposite to optimistic (I don't know how to spell the p-word) so I will act like this.

Sympathy does not need to be given

Toodlepip

Hallelujah

My throat is tickly, when I laugh it is followed my a cough which often brings up a large amount of mucous, I can't spell, but I'm looking so attractive right now with a nice green liquid oozing from my um...is it left or right? Well it's my right, so probably your left...

I'm ok. Nothing really bad going on apart from the occasional dose of bullshit given to me by "my good friend" Will. But it'll be alright, I'm aware of his lies.

I'm just going to fester on the internet whilst I wait for Tobias to come online so I have the chance of going to his rather then remaining in my house for the entire day.

Well yes, I'm listening to Hey Jude - The Beatles because it's good. But I'm going to put Last Summer - Lost Prophets on now because
1) It's one of those songs I can put on repeat and not get sick of
2) I like it
3) I'm hardcore with a quiche
4) I have fuck all decent tunes on my computer

Toodlepip

Is someone getting the best, the best, the best of you?

Well yesterday I was really pissed off. Will asked me if I liked Jeremy, I said yes...Will then tells me he loves me :| I love it when best friends fall in love with you when you want their best mates
I want Mikey, Nips! Please fall in love with me!
I want Mon, Pig! Please fall in love with me!
I want Jeremy, Will! Please fall in love with me!

God...and now Will is threatening to hit Jeremy, I just feel like shit because I really hope I haven't screwed things up for them, they should recognise that I'm only a girl and that they shouldn't even be bothered about it.

Dammit this will ruin the plans for Saturday night.

Maths exam

I love complicatoins between relationships.

Please, please, please let me be the cause of a relationship splitting up.

I love it :|

Well yeah, maths exam today, I'm as perked as a naked man. He's naked with no clothes.

I'm going to get changed and dry my hair, awww Jacob has hurt himself! He has several cuts on his head and it is bleeding.

Struth! You're lovely, I like Jeremy :)

Toodlepipx

All outta fags and I just can't wait

You know it's gonna be a good day when you send someone the message: dead and they reply with : ;)

I'm a bird you cannot change

I think that's what the song just said, it reminds me of Kris. I'm am, yet again, waiting for Will. He phones me to tell me he will be here at half 4, it's 5:10 and still no sign of him.

I haven't been in the same room as Crazy T for the last 2 days :( Yesterday I talked to him on the phone as he was stood outside my house, today he was supposed to come over but then Jim's nan farted so he had to clean up the mess.

Not really, something about cleaning up a safe.

Well yeah, I'm off to Jeremy's tonight. It's all good through the eyes of a peach monkey, however, I am not a peach monkey, therefore I am pissed off with Tab for deserting me for Jess...and her sexy uncle.

It should be fun.

Wishful thinking there...why do I always like people with girlfriends? It's so festering! I decided I'm not gay because I like male men...lol mail men...post men...post man Steve...

Toodlepipxxx

I'm looking to the sky to save me...

Life is good and life is great because I ate a pickle and farted.

God my arm really hurts, probably from holding the phone for 3 hours. I love being woke up by my phone at 11 almost everyday, if it ain't Crazy T it's Will, if it's not Will then it isn't anyone else because no one rings me.

Well yeah, I'm kinda arm-limping to type this, and I have bov because Will should be coming to pick me up dammit. I'm so bored and I crave nicotine :(

Toodlepip fatshits xxx

My leaving notes; Because Tab did it...

College

Hi Jess, Its been great knowing you and I hope you achieve the grades you want. IT doesn't seem like two years ago that we started here. Take care and look after yourself Love Sophie p.s hope to see you in September

Hey Jess, Loadza luck in the future. Keep smiling and go far. Live life to the full and enjoy it. Loadza love Sam Z xxx Take care xxx

Hi Jess, This course would not have been the same with out all the funny things you do or the times you teased me. take care love Lisa xx

Hiya Jess good luck in the future hope you get where you want to if you were not in this course then it wouldnt have been so much fun Kayleigh x

To Jess, It been really nice knowing you talk in about sex and stuff I hope to see you soon if you every need any think just give us a ring miss you love Danielle xxxxxx

Jess you are a talented young woman make sure you use them. I hope you get on the right course next Septembet Stella

Hey jess, Its been great knowing ya, I'll miss ya loud mouth and your sex addict attitude. Good luck for the future take care love Stacy xxx

hi ya munchkin hope you get on alright at college next year and have a good life dnt get to recked + dont get to much chicken wire in your brain lol c ya around sum time xxx Becky

Heya Jess, keep up the random txts they give me a little laugh. Love Ya Bye Shane

School

To Plop(Russia) I'm gonna miss the walking home. Don't worry your arse is still the size of Russia. Gonna miss you loads! Good luck with everythink! I love you xxxxxxxxxx Frankie (Brazil)

Jess You're mad! Maddy Meaden

Yar but no but! All the bext x Mr Woodrow My nearly favourite!

Hey Plop, well wot can i say about u! u just amazing woteva mood i am in u always seem to put me out of it. Im gona miss u so much Ur great + I love u. U wont av me 2 tell u whether u av boggies or not nemore. keep in touch love u millions + more always 4eva Kays x

hey Jess, I am really going to miss you soooo much. All the best for the future. Love you millions 4ever. Jade xxxxxx

To Ploppy, Im really going to miss you amazing weirdness, but most of all im going to miss your saying 'screw that light bulb' love you sooo much. love luce xxxxxxxxxxx

Have a wonderful life Nest wishes Mrs Walter

Hey gorgeous, I love you so much your such a laugh! We always have to keep in contact keep being weird coz I think ur gr8! Love u always nd 4eva Nicky xxxx

Dear Jess You have always been my favourite student

Jess, Luv ya loads and I'll miss ya! Hope we don't loose contact! Love you loadz Stacey xxx

Hi Jess good luck in the future love Daniel

Dizzy Im a footballer

Dearest Jessy!! Gona miss yaou so much!! you are a chicken!! Lurv yaz loads, keep in touch! Sammywoo xxx

See ya later in 2030 Lew

Remember fat bird give better head their always hungry Shooby

Jonathan Boardman

Have a wicked time in college love Aodh p.s I will really miss you

Yo, Yo, Yo Hey will miss ya alot, keep the jokes up! Your pretend friend God Bless Russ da quee xxx

Hey weird child. I will miss ya relly. Luv Alex xxx love you

Have a jolly time! Josh xxx

Gud luck Joel xxx

Jess, You so crazy! CCR

Jess, I love you ur great. love Terri xxxxxx

Jess, Best wishes for your future David B

Ploppy! Good luck bab! I'm gonna miss ur strange but sexiness! Love you stacks, 'Screw that LIGHTBULB!' MOSH xXx

good luck Jess, Hope you keep well and always have fun from Dave xx

Good luck Hope you have a great life I'll miss you Luke.

Hope you do well at college and have a happy future x Helen Oke.

good luck Jackson x

Good luck Jess Paul Hawkes x

Jess, I wont miss you because I'm still going to see you all the time. Just to wish you all the luck in the world and keep cool mate. Love 2 u always, Tabby xx Amanda

Ploppy, Hey gorge. Im not gonna say I'll miss u because Im REALLY hoping we wil stay really close mates and see each ova all the time. You've done a lot for me, some of the things I've told u, I haven't told no one else and thats because I trusy you 100%. I could neva wish for a bette friend as they don't get no beta than you. Without u, I don't know what I'd be like right now. Your the best in the world an I'll never forget u. Take care & good luck. Love u more than words can explain lv the one an only xCorrinPooxxx

I love u loads u bin such a gud m8! Known ya 4 ages! luv'n ya loads Charloooote

If im down and feeling blue I will smile when i fink of u! U make me laugh and make me cry Good luck Babe, Bye bye bye All my love forever Amy .M. xxxxx

Jess Good luck in what you do. Hope I see you soon. Luv James xx

Hello I liked u really. Good luck see you soon Luv Adam

ello Plop, uve bin hellof a mate (ha ha) uve always made me laugh. Follow ur dreams Hun. love ya Annie xxx p.s dont know why i wrote hell of a its really cornish, im not cornish

to Jess ur the best from Jarvis .S

Dear Jess, Still remember you from years ago...! Don't be too cool to come back + say hello even when you're old (ha ha). I will remember! Alex S.

To Jess Dear Jess I hope you have a healthy and happy life away from school and me!! All my love and all the best Mr T xxx

I'm gonna miss history so much! You've made me realise how much fun life is! We'll keep in touch! Good luck! Claire! xxx

hello crazy one, If you son't get an A* in art I'll eat a paper hat that says Injustice on it. Have a rainbow life - If you find the leprocorn call me Rose

hi, Have a good'n Luv Joe x

Don't do nythin I oodent Tom M

Good luck Jess Miss Iley

Good luck in your future Jess - (my favourite pupil!) - luv Dave King x

Good luck Jess Grant F x.

Good luck in the exams + for the future Chris B.

I realy realy want to fuck u xx

Good Luck and Best Wishes, Mr Crosslane.

Bye Jess Have lots of fun no matter what you do Reece

Good luck in the future. Ross.

Hello 2 U good luck, have loads babies....BUT DONT GET MARRIE AT 16 loadsin weirdos skurt xx

BOO! xxxxxxI love you Peter Fawdon

Jess, You're very funny and gave me light relief from boredomJess ur g8. Chris Hobbs x

There is no way I could possibly forget you when I'm famous but I doubt I will be famous as the public never recognises true talent (joke). Eternally yours, Love Kyalo xxx

Hey Jess Have fun good luck. luv Steph

Hello Jess you odd girl I really enjoyed trampoline as always FUCK OFF love James Allen xxxxxx

Hi fit plop, I LOVE YOU loads. I'm gona miss you. Goodluck Gorgeous. Love. Nikita Crap xxxx

Hi Jess Happy future love Adam xxx

miss ya loads luv Will x

Richard Shearing x love

Bibi Jessy take care luvya Gary xxxxx

Love ya loads Jess Emzi Sw xxx

Love ya trillionz Baljit!!! Dont change cos ur excellent n always make the laff. Love ya trillionz Gertrude! (Desra) xxx

Won't miss ya loads Mike xxx

Hi hope to see u in future Love Luke S

GOOD luck JESS Shaun

Good Dicker

Hey Jess, You're Ace. All the best. Nick Cage. xx

To Jess good luckwif the exams Aaron Beware of pandas

Good luck Rich Medland xxxx

Good luck Andy.B xxx

Good luck. u were weird but I suppose funny, John.

Good luck with everything Ben Craig

Hi Jess Good luck with future from Mat xx

hey sweetie. miss ya already. dnt 4get da chickens!! love ya lisa xx

Boob x

luv You miss You love from Nathan xx

To Jessy. Im gonna miss you so so much and hope your GCSE's are good. love yas darlin love the other Jess xx mwah

You keep counting the beans, and one day the beans will count you. I will remember you probably for a long time. have fun in your life and don't fall into the system. Jenny M.

Gd luck in the suture- dont get to drunk. Hope u achieve a;; u want and follow ur dreams, I'll miss u luv Olivia xx

Hey Jess, luv as always, I think ur a wikid person, best of luck for the future. Luv Ya x Michelle xxx (Fry)

good luck Jess, you are groovy and we have the same name! cool luv Jessica p.s. I've known you, like, forever really haven't I?

Jess, its been a pleasure to be your history teacher - I wish you every possible future success and happiness. Take care + have fun! coco-pops! Love Vicks x aka Miss Dx.

Good luck Jess from Rob x

I love u and will miss u Ben x

Jess, IT's been an experience. Good luck in the old exams, You deserve a fun life - hope all goes well. Mr B

Hi Good luck in the future lol dont stop laughing HaHa Joe Justice

hello I hope you don't get molested and stay happy from Piki x

So placidly amongst the noise and haste. Kemball

Good luck C u soon luv Jake xxx

To plop I love you so much, your one of my oldest Bestest friends If I lost you as a friend I think id lose myself. you are such a beautiful young intelagent women. keep in touch love you for ever. love crystynay. xxxxxx

I'll miss you, Craig xxx Love you always!

hey m8t, ur the funniest girl I no! hope u do really well in the future. love Gina xxx

To Jess - Good luck wherever you wonder to... Andy Latter

to Jess I will miss u mini Dan Matt xxx

To Jess from Scott xxx

To Jess miss u matt xxx

Good luck 4 the future! Luv Jake xxx

Good luck Jess. Bye. Rowan .B. xxxxx

Hey, Good luck Best Whishes Todd xxx

retnioP neB
xxx

Love you loads great laugh Joe xx

love you from DANKSY x

Hey baby boobs You have always been my best mate and I love you to bits and I hope you know that. Good luck chick I love you, I love you, I love you Lettie (big tits) xxxxxxxxxxxx

hay chicken, ur gr8t dont let ne1 tell you ne different. Always be yourself Love Always Kristie xxxxx

Will's T-Shirt

Cornish born
Stratton bred
Good on the farm
But better in bed

I'm getting tierd of starting again

Today was rather random but great.

I was woken up by a message from my great friend Will, at 9:30a.m, asking me what I was doing today. An hour later, he rings telling me he's going to pick me up in a n hour and a half, so I manage to wake myself up, scramble to my housephone and I rang Tab, I told her the plan of action and we talked as I urinated. After we had hung up, I washed my hair and blow dried it whilst listening to Jerk It Out - The Caesers. I got another phone call - Will telling me that he's on his way.

I phoned Tab, told her to hurry her ass up. Will is outside. I get into the back of a red rover, with my two old friends sat in the front; just like old times.

We picked Tab up and drove around aimlessly, and had many near-death experiences, but it ended up being ok. Corrine soon had to leave due to her sister's work place wanting her there, so I was finally sitting in the front seat.

We decided to drive to Bradworthy, to pick up tires. The lesbian seemed to like me; conversation was flowing.

We started to drive back to Will's, to change his old with the new tyres. Work rang. He dropped us off.

Phoned Crazy T, he came, he left. We went to the pasty shop. We went to Pig's. Crazy T came, he left.

Tab, Pig and talked of memories; I love my friends.

English Exam

I'm glad I did that revision that I did...

Went to Pig's, Corrin came, we went to Steve's

We met up with Benett then went back to hers

Skelly came over

We went into Bude

We stayed with Steve all night

I came home

Well...School is...gone?

Friday:
Last day of school, I had to walk to school in my formal clothes in the rain. It was a very emotional day. Lucy was crying from when I first saw her to the last possible minute! I got a photo of Mr King and me! I nearly cried. The concert was amazing, Rachel singing Somewhere Over The Rainbow really got me...wet? Lmao...you know what I mean! I won an award! "Class Joker" Wow! So those 5 years of acting like a complete twat have finally paid off!
After school me and Tab got the photos developed straight away! Yeah...We were dreaming by that time, I got a phone call from Lucy asking to stay over mine: Sure! So I manically cleaned my room, then she came. Lucy managed to consume the bottle of Lambini rather quickly! Hankie came over then we went to Pig's, on the way we saw George so he gave us a lift. We saw Nips, so he went to get us some more Dreaming powder. After, we rolled 2 spades and went to a random lane and...we were dreaming.
We got to the beach, and me and Tab immediately ran to George and rolled a couple more spades. After, we decided to "mingle" this was when I was Gemma crying! It was horrible, and we hugged! And spoke about the time when Ben Craig asked her for a hug and she just looked at him and said: "why", it was fucking hilarious! She said I really deserved the reward!
And then Jen! Oh I really wanted to hug you! It felt as if my arms were lifting up...but I couldn't quite reach you...or maybe I just thought that because I was dreaming...
I'll see you Wednesday and rape you then :)
Well yeah, there was rumours about this guy, Crazy T. And I saw him there so I thought...hey! I'll go stalk him for a while. He soon stopped walking when he reached Aodh (pwhoar!) I then told him I was stalking him, one thing lead to another and we were rolling another spade with them :)
So yeah, Crazy T and Me ended up being best friends, we were actually with each other all night, It was really weird! I felt I could talk to him about anything...Jim came over, we had a couple of group hugs, then Mikey came over and we had a couple more...
Heather came over and did the whole thing she does every time she's fucked and she sees me: "Jess Sturt! I know you don't like me...."
Then it came to the time when we had to say goodbye...I hugged Mikey, Crazy T, Jim, oh wait! No I didn't get to hug Jim goodbye because Crazy T didn't let go of me. He was holding on to me for quite a long time, at least 5 minutes. I was holding onto Sammy whilst he was grabbing Crazy T's bollocks; still wouldn't let go! Then Tab had him in a headlock! We all fell to the floor then this random Tracey girl just shouted: Grab my hand. It was like something out of a Disney film and sure enough, I was out :)
When I was walking home, it did frighten me a little when I saw Crazy T isitting near the church, but he was waiting for Jim. I've really gotta stop telling people I'm obsessed with them! I felt so bad because he said: "Awww, you're obsessed with me. Someone actually loves me!"
Well yeah...the next day came...

Saturday:
We woke up at 9 for some reason, me and Tab were arranging what to wear for Lettie's hen night. Lucy left, I phoned Lettie to see if we could get there a wee bit earlier, so we did. We then went shopping with Lettie, I got a tiara and pink sparkly top :)
We got back and started to transform her house into a fiary cavern, it was great! Then it came to the part where we had to get ready, so we did. Tab was a goth fairy, she actually looks amazing with black hair! I was just this random stupid one with bright red hair; I love looking like a twat.
Well yeah, me and Tab had a spade, played a couple of drinking games and had another spade. By this time we was fucked!
We decided to go out, so we went to the Bencoolen, but it was obvious I was underage and Yvonne kept saying:"Drink up girls" so she made us look all paranoid. But we did manage to sing quite a few songs! And on the way out...what do I decided to do? Yes, Jess! Let's slip down the steps!
Next stop was the Carriers, as we walked in Tab and I saw her ever so fit uncle and her brother. So we sat with them. It was great, we got a couple more drinks in there. The other fairies decided to go to JJ's but Tab and I knew we wouldn't get in so we told them we were staying at the Carriers. So we did, and got some more drinks. It came to the point where we all wanted to leave, so Kazbar was the next stop!
Excuse me, have you got any I.d?
Sorry, no, no I don't
What's your birthdate?
8th of the 2nd 1986
And your starsign?
Aquarius *big grin*
Put your hand there...

and it was as easy as that! Tab's uncle paid for me! Woohoo! So yeah we got in...and everyone knows what A kazbar night is like so bov for details, I've written loads already.

Sunday:
Went to Pig's, went to apologise to Lettie because she was pissed off with us (her and the other fairies actually ended up in Kazbar!), Um...watched Little Britain with Pig then came home.

Monday:
Had business exam, spoke to Will and Dan. Me and Tab are meeting Dan today! And Will tomorrow. Should be fun but yes freakishly scary at the same time...We're meeting him at 4...it's 10 to 1 and Tab isn't online...it's scary!

Well yeah, that's all mofo.

Toodlepip xxx

I love Kings Of Leon!

The Bucket is such a great song! Makes me so happy and I can't stop listening to it!

Well...my art exam is finally done, Sir said I did "brilliant" on it. I bought the year photo today, it's all good. Got my business exam tomorrow, barbeque on Wednesday and my best friends hen night on Saturday!

I can't believe Lettie is getting married a week on Saturday! Well the hen night should be fun, we're meeting at hers at 7 on Saturday night, we're gonna get completely rat assed and the theme is fairies!

People may say she's being stupid, getting married at 16 and all, but I admire her. People shouldn't wait around, and plus! If it doesn't work out; there's always divorce. You see if it was me, I would worry about it. I don't take chances and I always regret saying no to something.

Well that's all.

Things on phone:
i am something that you will never comprehend...Lyrics from a Prince song I liked

Trouble - Pink...a song I wanted to download

Adam Zolitan...A fitty from the film "Jack" you know the one, when Robin Williams plays this kid who looks 40 when he's actually 10...yeah well Lewis is fit.

Or whatever his name is...

I am soooooooo happy!

Today at school was average. First lesson was art; Lewis is quite a good guy to have a conversation with! I noticed this with Chris sometime last week when I was dreaming; I am not the only person who thinks in particular ways.
Second lesson was p.e; this was shit but the little "lets sit with Mikey" thing made it *that* much better.
Break was fulfilled with posing in a picture for Chrissie's artwork and Mrs Ryan giving Gina shit.
Gina: Oh my God I just turned around and she was right in my face! I's the ugliest thing I've seen in my life.
Mrs Ryan: Try looking in the mirror then
Third lesson was science, this consisted of Russell giving me shit, Alex forgetting that R.E was the next lesson and posing in yet another photo for Nicola with Alex, Russ, Josh, Aodh and Joel.
I went to Lettie's after. I stripped wallpaper (whilst having a great conversation with Anna! I never thought I would get along with her...), I helped Alana paint the bathroom lemon yellow and I helped her pack her suitcase as she is spending a week in Newquay.
I watched half of "Sweet Home Alabama", made my dinner then rewound the video and watched it all again with Lettie.
We then pissed ourselves watching "Bring It On Again"

Monks can't cheer!

I then walked home, but detoured to Pig's house where I recieved two rizlas in exchange for a kiss on the cheek.

I then sang all the way home and I just so happy now!

So happy I'm listening to Michael Jackson - Don't Stop Til You Get Enough...

I'm alive

Well I didn't go to school today. I woke up about 6 with major dry mouth, so I downed about 2 pints of water, I then went back to sleep until 7. Mum was in the shower so I thought I'd go to the kitchen, I downed two glasses of this mango stuff then went back upstairs.

I urinated, and felt a stabbing pain in my stomach. I had a bath and nearly fainted with the pain, so after a fight to stay conscious when shaving my legs, I quickly washed my hair then stumbled out. I then passed out on my bed, later waking up at 1:30pm

I felt better after I had taken some ibruprofen, I just couldn't get comfortable because no matter how I lay, my tummy would make me feel sick and the stabbing pain would just get major intense.

I watched Neighbours and I felt a little better. I had something to eat then watched Malcolm in the Middle. Later I rang Tab and we met up.

Soon we were dreaming.

We went to Pig's and his neice played with a Golliwog. I walked home and downloaded Cool Rider from the Grease 2 soundtrack. Yeah I'm lame but I saw someone listening to it on msn. I then told them that I had downloaded and they said that they weren't at the computer when it was being played...I was very embarrassed.

Must dash, I'm going on a date with Luke Shaw tonight.

Can't wait to feel his heavy breath on my neck.

Toods x

This is ourselves under pressure

You make me feel like the one says:
dont make any plans

Tabbaayyy says:
ok y?

You make me feel like the one says:
going driving with mikey

Tabbaayyy says:
really?

You make me feel like the one says:
no

You make me feel like the one says:
he was joking

Tabbaayyy says:
lol ok

You make me feel like the one says:
prick

You make me feel like the one says:
you like my chemical romance

You make me feel like the one says:
?

Tabbaayyy says:
yeah

You make me feel like the one says:
i was joking....

You make me feel like the one says:
send me that song

You make me feel like the one says:
that would be well good!

Tabbaayyy says:
it is

You make me feel like the one says:
my favourite queen song and the used!!!

Tabbaayyy says:
its not finished yet

Tabbaayyy says:
and actually its not that good

Tabbaayyy says:
but ill send u it when its done

You make me feel like the one says:
kkk

Tabbaayyy says:
85%

Tabbaayyy says:
i mite go up mons later because im extremely bored

You make me feel like the one says:
...ok

You make me feel like the one says:
i think its time for a little radiohead now

Tabbaayyy says:
Can u see a difference in my font?

You make me feel like the one says:
yes its blue and curly

You make me feel like the one says:
dont suppose u wanna take photos of me?

Tabbaayyy says:
today?

You make me feel like the one says:
if u wanna

You make me feel like the one says:
unless u wanna go up mons

Tabbaayyy says:
theyre goin out at 6:30 anyway

You make me feel like the one says:
where?

Tabbaayyy says:
lucky kiss i think

You make me feel like the one says:
oh right

You make me feel like the one says:
OMGWTFBBQ

Tabbaayyy says:
lol

Tabbaayyy says:
what photos u need taking?

You make me feel like the one says:
um...

You make me feel like the one says:
all of them but crying and happy

You make me feel like the one says:
so about 6

You have successfully received D:\My Documents\Lisa\Songs\Mp3\The Used And My Chemical Romance - Under Pressure (Live David Bowie Cover).mp3 from Tabbaayyy.

Tabbaayyy says:
well ill come round urs after ive been mons for a bit, coz i need some

You make me feel like the one says:
kkk

Tabbaayyy says:
wot tiem shall i leave mons?

Tabbaayyy says:(ill get my dad to pick me up from urs at 9:30)

You make me feel like the one says:
ok

You make me feel like the one says:
whatever time i dont mind

Tabbaayyy says:
alrite, what if i walked with them wen they went out, coz then we got 3 hours for 6 photos

You make me feel like the one says:
ok

You make me feel like the one says:
this song is shit

Tabbaayyy says:
lol

You make me feel like the one says:
il wait for my fav lline...

Tabbaayyy says:
i rthought it woiuld be good

Tabbaayyy says:
i think it ruins the song

Tabbaayyy says:
ur fav line

Tabbaayyy says:
with them singing it

You make me feel like the one says:
nah theyve fucked it up

You make me feel like the one says:
so much better with queen

Tabbaayyy says:
lol definately!

So yeah, that was mine and Tabby's conversation. I just think it's really cute how she recognises my favourite parts of the songs, and yesterday when we was getting drinks, she got two cups out and pulled the one furthest away from her and poured the drink in, she then passed it to me. I thought it was amazing how she had poured me one first.

I love Tab!!

Things on phone:
Wade Robson...a fitty on Sky, was on a programme called: "The Wade Robson Project"

The sun always shines on tv...some lyrics I like, must find that song!

Memski...a really fit human beatboxer person...

The Bravery - Fearless...a song I wanted to download

Find and embrace the truths you are fortunate enough to discover...lyrics that Crazy T person had wrote in the yearbook. I wish to find the song and download it :)

Well...Now that was a common multiple chickenwire stuck up slag!

This weekend has been such a good one.

Bov for details, I'm just enjoying myself.

Although the college application form that I want hasn't come through yet...

Toodlepipx

Good love and protection.

This weekend has been mondane and normal.

Friday: Went round Mon's and remained sober (but nowI have kissed my first dick!)

Saturday: Went round Mon's, then went babysitting until 3 in the morning, hey! There's £30!

Sunday: Woke up late, went to Pig's and watched loads of films.

I should be having a bath tonight, although Jacob has decided to break the light switch, which means I've either got to wash in the dark or be romantic with myself by lighting some candles (thanks for the idea, Keirah)

I was thinking as I sat on the toiler earlier, how soft the toilet paper was, I think it's because I couldn't see, so because I was deprived of one...shit what's it called? Senses! Yes! Because I was deprived of having light sense, I felt more...

And that's the story of that folks!

Well yeah, school tomorrow...WOOHOO

Toodlepip x

Good Luck!

Today's been not so bad actually!

Woke up at what I thought was 8:15...but then I got ready, about 10 minutes later I looked at the clock again and it was 8:11...

So I think I better go see an optician

Walked to school, got there, no one else was there!

First lesson was science, it was quite fun, business was boring and i.t was alright.

After that I went down Lettie's and we played on Point Blank for ages :D Sooo addictive!

At 5 I got a lift to Safeway and walked home from there, I've just edited my site, check it out:

http://chickengal192.mysite.wanadoo-members.co.uk

Well yeah, I'm home now blaring my Basement Jaxx...

Toodlepip for now :D xxx

Never ask your tutor what they think of your breasts...

Today I was at college, it was boring as usual. I was just really excited about Tab coming. When she did I introduced her to all the retards in my class.

At 2:30 it was our interview, I had my personal interview with Rosemary, and as she already knew me she wasn't really sure whether I should be on the course or not, due to the title of this blog...

Yeah...I act in an inappropriate way...

But yeah, basically I've been accepted but if my behaviour goes shit, I won't be allowed on the course. I'm waiting for my interview date from the photography course that I wanna take, then I'll decide which one to do.

After, Tab's dad picked us up and embarrassed me so much! We went into Comet and her dad told all the stuff how I'd just came out the closet about being a lesbian, and that I have a hairy back, but I use the razor for other things...the conversation ended with him telling them that he was a transexual...

I'm now over Mon's with a banging headache. I'm completely bisotted (sp?) with Rob...damn...

Toodlepip for now x

P.S!!!

Mr King waved to me today <3

There was a random woman picking up dead bluebells :

And there was a boy on a bike who rode past me and did the crazy frog :D

Ooh oo

Well todays been quite good.

I woke up early, and was still thinking about the same person that I had been thinking about before I slept, and when I slept. I had a shower, it took me half an hour to do my hair :

Well yeah, walked to school ( I actually love walking by myself listening to music...I try to move to the beats...)

I got to school, did maths then went home :)

I came home and did all the booklet thingys, then had a laugh with Tab, met her, went to Bude and bought Basement Jaxx's album.

Went to Pig's, then got called home early because it's my sisters birthday today and I have to babysit...

Well I must leave now

Toodlepip xxx

Sing along and it might just get you through...

I actually love the song Pulp - Common People. The lyrics are so sarcastic!

This weekend has beens hit. Ooh, best bit of song <3

Friday; went to Mon's, walked home by myself

Staurday; fell out with Tab and Sam, went to the castle, saw Corrinpoo, Luc, Jade and Amy. Me, Pig, Joel, Paul, Craig, Anna and Rosie went to Bude Junior school, Craig went home then Joel and Paul went somewhere.

Me and Pig were left with the girls and it was really awkward and silent. The girls left, the boys came back, Pig randomly spewed, then we went to the beach to see Tab, Jess, Mon and Sam.

I tried my best to fix things...but Jess and Tab were being rude and sat on a bench which was probably the furthest away they could get from me. Sam was being sweet. I just wanted to break down into tears but no one understands what it's like for me.

They all think I'm a weirdo with fucked up mood swings who always takes it out on them, but I can't help it! All I needed was a hug and not to be by myself...

Well me and Tab went to Somerfield to get everyone a drink, then my alarm went off so I walked to Gina's to babysit.

I ended up spending the night in Joseph's bed watching Spongebob Squarepants, I was almost falling asleep, until he started to lie down and I thought; Gina comes in...I'm a paedophile.

So I left him to sleep and watched this thing on cosmetic surgery.

Gina came back around 2, with quite a fit guy! But hey....I just went out with MoMmI in her sexy glasses and went home.

I slept, today I went round Pig's and have had a really good day! I've been chatting to all my favourites, like Rob, Del and Perry.

I'm not just saying that because you're gonna read this Del :P

I'm gonna be an art student :D

I'm sooooo excited! Well yeah...I better go help Pig find a film to watch as he looks ever so bored and I've stolen his computer for so long now...

Toodlepip xxx

Anyone will do tonight

School was shit.

It always is.

Went to Lettie's we took photos.

Went to Pig's, Tab told me bad news and I'm pissed off so much right now.

Why are there people who get everything?

Rah...goodbye

You bleed just to know you're alive

Well...I'm at college after the waking up early, witnessing Corrin getting onto the bus with a faulty buspass and generally staring out the window.

Yesterday was quite fun actually. I thought that Corrin and I were gonna stay in, but we went out and met Amy. It was quite a laugh and there was many near-death experiences. We were walking to Spar so Amy could urinate when Steveo pulled up.

I have heard so much about this geezer, and now I had finally met him! I told him my name was Julie, I only lived on Tuesdays and that I fancied him.

We got on quite well :). Usually I can't get on with older guys as they have no sense of humour (damn you) but after the drawings of retarded elephants, fishes and platypusses (sorry for my stupidness spelling woo) I decided that he was actually hilarious, and he even joined in with some crazy hand dance.

Well yeah, we soon returned home and watched No Angels, quite good actually. When Corrin had gone to sleep, Danni and I watched this sex on the beach thing, and we've decided we want to go clubbing and get laid!

Yes, well I better leave now, got Health and Social Care stuff to do...

Love you Tab, Toodlepip xxx

School is so cool

Well back to school we go...

No I am not a fan of Dizzee's new track...

Today went fast actually, I've got over embarrassment over everything I guess, which is good as all my trousers reveal my underwear someway...todays pair: Big hole in the crotch area.

After me and Tab met Luke, Pj and Connor...it was er different; that is all I will say about that!

When I wasn't in the correct state of mind I started thinking...why do I greet people with hugs? Yes...I love being in a thoughtful mood, makes you think about things :P

It's 11:00 p.m and I'm ever so tired, had a coffee to wake me up this morning, gotta wake up earlier tomorrow aswell as I want to be early enough to meet Tab before she gets to school...no reason whatsoever :P...

Yeah I'm sooo not telling.

Gotta go toodlepip xxx

Aquarius

As Tab's dad is kinda physchic (can't spell) he has loads of books on Starsigns and stuff.

From these I have discovered that all Aquarians are:

Eccentric
Individual
Unpredictable
They wear bright clothes
They don't show affection
They take care of close friends

I'm am NOT any of the above, maybe I was adopted...and changed my birthday.

Over Mon's now, must continue grabbing his bollocks

Toodlepip for now xxx

I want a good girl...she want a gentleman

Ah...there's the sigh of good old bov.

Air stayed over mine Tuesday, it was his birthday and I would not accept the fact that he would spend it by himself, damn you and your shit friend skills Pig.

So...at around 10 we actually left to go to my house, when we got there he said hello to my sister Karen, she gave him two johnnies (we love that). We then started to watch 13 Ghosts...or is it 13th Ghost? Oh well...

He soon produced bov for that, so we ended up watching home videos of me and Tab, that soon got boring so we watched The Friday Night Project. It was the one when Pat Sharpe was the mystery celebrity in the sex scene. After that we just decided to watch Malcolm In The Middle.

We did this until 5 o'clock in the morning.

At 8, I was quite pleased to find myself awake...we watched Fireman Sam, but my eyes needed to be closed.

We then had small intervals of sleep, but finally managed to sleep until 12. When I woke up that time I turned over and shouted to Air: "You managed to sleep then"

He loved it.

I walked to Pig's...and then here comes back the mondane life.

But yeah, I spoke to an old contact (who had been deleted)...he kept interrupting my game of solitaire showdown (not a good idea) so I kept giving him shit. I then realised that it was the fitty from Faceparty.

So then I started playing with him, and it pissed me off because he didn't move one card "I don't know what to do".

Well the night came to an end, so I deserted him. It was a happy and fun filled conversation...

Why don't you buy it *cheesey pose*

I've had soooooo much fun doing my art coursework! I'm so sad! But hey...I do fuck all drawings because I'm doing a collage. Just loads of photos to stick, random things that make me up, lyrics are scribbled...it's just making a personal log book about what makes me tick ;)

Well. I'm going to wait for Pig to either return Tabby's call or jus come online...

Toodlepip

P.S Kanye West - Never Let Me Down (Number 8 on album)

I've got a bad feeling about this

I'm really pissed off about Jose.

(For Jenn, so she knows why)

We were like seeing eachother occassionally, he didn't come in one night...then suddenly he's got a new bird.
He says:

He still likes me (apparantly)
He won't cheat on her (I wouldn't of anyways)
He won't finish with her

So...that's really pissed me off. Guess I didn't think I liked him as much as I actually do...

Just another waste of a friendship now.

God... I really need to cry, otherwise poor old Tab will have to suffer with the consequences.

Why does everything I want have to be stopped?

Goodnight guys, I need a fag :(

I'm just trying to find a decent melody, a song that I can sing, my own company...

Last night we babysat on a Saturday night.We did it from 8:45pm until 1:30am. After, we started walking in the direction of my house, but then we decided to stayout a little longer.So we walked to the direction of the castle, looking for people. We didn't find anyone. We went to the canal and phoned almost everyone on my phone, just so that they would meet us. Our only response was from Nips, in Marhamchurch (a town roughly 2 miles away from Bude (where I live))So we decided to walk up there, we went the cycle path way...and I kinda led us to half way to Marhamchurch, then took a wrong turn and ended back in Bude...But anyway...in the end we got to Marhamchurch, after being chased by the people coming out of the pub, we finally made it to Freya's house at 3:15am, ready for the last joint.We went to sleep around 5:00am, woke up at 7:00am and started walking back to Bude at 7:30am...I slept...and then had to be woken up for a roast meal...I seriously think the cellulite on my legs has gone now...

Today, I am hoping to sleep through the majority of the day.

I found this:
Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
can i come up na?

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
what mine?

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
no, sorry, i was talking to emporer caeser

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
im goin his

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
oh pigs? I

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
no, caesers

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
( im making it up)

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
o

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
well im gonna stay in stabucks today

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
nobody likes niggers walking out of there own houses in the day time

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
i'll get beaten up

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
i hate being a chink

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
lol y?

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
because my eyes hurt when i squint

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
aww, well my nose is so big i can hardyl see, and my lips drag on the floor and bleed a lot of the time

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
i have yellow skin

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
i have black skin. Its like ive been in an incinerator, maybe youve been poisoned

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
no

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
i also have jet black hair, and i can't speak english

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
is ur name Sadako?

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
No...

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
Haemaroid

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
Oh mine is Mama Kass Jnr.

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
Not really

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
its Yasmin

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
Yasapak?

I love you when you dance when you freestyle in trance so pure such an expression supposed former infatuation junkie. says:
yeah

P.S I discovered last night that I can't sleep without my feet touching eachother

I would like some milk from the milkman's wife's tits...

I appeared to of experienced insomnia last night. It was due to watching The Ring and The Ring 2 a couple of nigths before. The thought of Samara climbing out of my television screen was petrifying.

I stayed on my computer until 2:30 a.m. I then went downstairs, pulled my sister's baby out of bed to be with me. He soon woke up and wouldn't go back to sleep, so I passed him to my sister at 3:00 a.m. I then turned on my friendly lamp, and read a chapter of "A Man Named Dave".

I went to sleep at around 4:oo a.m.

I was woken up at 7:00 a.m. by a text from Luke, 3 hours later, Gina text me. I'm babysitting tonight.

I had a bath with the door open, it was amazing as I listened to Def Leppard - When Love and Hate Collide. I made myself up and left without a care in the world...

I am now over Pig's, contemplating about my single life. Not much chatting going on...

Harry - New phone number is 07817195432 says:
nufin

Harry - New phone number is 07817195432 says:
goin for a shower in a min

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
ive had a bath

Im single; I can comb my hair whenever I want says:
with the doors open

Harry - New phone number is 07817195432 says:
ok

I must now return to my mondane life, listening to The Killers and sharing experiences with people I have and probably never will meet in my life.

Toodlepip x

Conversations are great...

01/04/05
21:09:13
(R) Jess - I know what this song is about! (R)
I think that people use the word "blog" wrongly

01/04/05
21:09:27
(R) Jess - I know what this song is about! (R)
I think that was originally called "weblog"

01/04/05
21:09:27
www.alexpepper.org.uk/weblog.htm
you think?

01/04/05
21:09:41
(R) Jess - I know what this song is about! (R)
so people thought it was that... but it's clearly a "web-log"

01/04/05
21:10:05
www.alexpepper.org.uk/weblog.htm
yeah, and maybe blog is just alliteration of that

01/04/05
21:10:09
(R) Jess - I know what this song is about! (R)
Yes!

Today, after walking home, I experienced a completely new sense of pride. So I wrote it down:
When walking home, I felt a strange but familiar sound. It was the sound of my hair gently patting on my back. It was then that I realised that I had made something of myself.

Songs to download:

Smashing Pumpkins - Disarm
Akon And P Money- Keep On Calling

Fit guys on telly:

Suraj De Watts

Over and out.

Oh can't you see? You belong to me...

The Easter holidays have proved to be more realistic than what I would of hoped them to be.

Recently I have been having really vivid dreams, it's horrible as some are so scary...and some are just wierd because I thought the things that I had dreamt were what actually happened...and I would talk to people about it...yeah...

Through these dreams I've discovered what my fears are:

• very drunk men
• being found when trying to hide

Well yeah...recently all the crew have been hanging out round Mon's. He's Jess K's new geezer, it's been pretty fun actually.

I've just discovered how much I hate having such a beautiful best friend. It's like, every single guy you like...wants her. And even if they do like you, you're like a second...um...choice? It really makes me upset, I know it's not her fault that Tab is the way she is, but damn...

Like yesterday...Mon and Da were talking about how fit everyone is..."Tab is beautiful, you're...pretty"

What am I talking about? Yeah my friend's prettier than me...but why be jealous? If a guy likes me for who I am...then good on him. If he judges by looks...I guess he'll only be getting the better deal...

God...

I'm the most selfish person in the world.

But the thing is, people treat Tab differently to me. Things like these:

• Me: "Mon, can I have a mars bar?" Mon: "No". Tab: "Can I have a mars bar?" Mon: "Yes".

It just feels like all the time, Tab is and always will be better than me. Take Len for instance, so many times I've tried to have his attention, Tabby wins everytime. And this Biggins guy...he says I'm scary. He doesn't even know me. People judge me as the funny/wierd person all the time, without even giving me a chance. Why the fuck not? I'm just as serious as anyone else. I have feelings, and people always forget that.

"Look! There's Jess, the one that can handle everything, laughs about everything, is happy all the time"

I'm not. At all. I need support at times guys. I'm going crazy...

And finally, Pete Cholwill; You don't need me to say what a great father you was, especially as all that you saw me as was your daughters friend, but you will be missed by many, and you'll stay in their hearts forever.

Rest in peace, My Favourite Taxi Driver x

We're half way there...WOAH living on a prayer!

Last night consisted of alot of alcohol, dancing, cheesey tunes and sick!

School was usual...quite festering and reminding me that I had lots of courswork to do...meh...

After school I went to Lettie's, got Alana a valentines present for her birthday...also I wrote on her birthday card envelope: If you read this you're gay. I fell to the floor in laughter when she read it out loud. Lettie's boyfriend was due to come round, so I applied lots of orange foundation to my face to scare him, I also wore her aunties suit which contained some ever so lovely shoulder pads.

We went to meet him and Tabby put on her "Natasha Gwyther" accent, it was rather amusing how she couldn't drop it after she had spoke in the same tone for the whole 10 mintues she was using it.

We went back and I removed the make up and got ready for Alana's 18th birthday. Alana let me wear her beautiful glittery top, I also wore a glittery skirt with knee highs.

We then went to Pig's after Lettie and I consumed a big bottle of WKD. We were greeted by a whole one can for me and Tab to share!

It soon turned 8 o'clock so we met Jess K outside and got the lift to the pub, I was yet again greeted with alcohol. The people started to arrive and we consumed many alcoholic substances.

I was dancing with Frankie, Nikita and Jess when suddenly Jess turned away, when she turned to face me again I saw a pile of liquid on the floor, she grabbed my arm and it was wet, she asked me to go to the toilet with her. As I can't handle sick, I left Frankie to sort her out. She was throwing up rice...it was rather revolting. She then was taken home by Lettie's sister Becky. Tabby was the next to throw up. By this time I was extremely drunk and was dancing to various songs such as: I would walk 500 miles, My Boy Lollipop, Living On A Prayer, Daydream Believer...

We soon had to go, which kinda annoyed me because I had just started to enjoy myself, it was fun seeing all of Lettie's exes as I grew close to all of them, so close I named Steve "my brother with an a" and I swapped clothes with Ocko.

I then went home and slept.

Babysitting tonight, hopefully we won't get locked 0ut again.

Toodlepip x

One is the lonliest number that you'll ever do...

I reached the grand age of 16 just fine...
The er...15 year old Jess didn't get a very good send off, but who cares? She's gone now...as is all her memories.

That's right. I'm anaemic, damn my spelling...I meant amnesia.

When I was like...13 or 14 I saw people say how much they loved celebrities. Apart from my 3 beauties (John Rzeznik, Chester Bennington and Justin Hawkins.) I thought they would be the only ones I cared about...

But I was wrong...

My 3 husbands have multiplied into 5 (Brandon Flowers and Brian Molko). I also like Kevin Spacey, the dude from Jet and Johnny Depp.

But it will never happen...and I've got to remember this.

I remember the phase of "Adam Garcia". Everywhere you turned you would hear about him, I never actually knew he was, until this weekend.

I was watching Coyote Ugly, and I had to keep my self from throwing punches at the tv screen because I fell in love with the character of Mr Donnell. There might be an "o" there somewhere...
Oh well...

Anyway...like all obsessed teenagers would do, I looked for his name in the credits. And there it was...

Adam Garcia.

I'm trying to give up on all these causes, but it's when you think up memories about them, you really want to make them real...and I did not just say that!

Well it's really early in the morning, 10:35 to be exact. I've got the dentist at 2:30, so I'm gonna "hit the shower" before then, then I'm gonna...see if I can go to Pigs, then I'll do my food coursework there.

Good planning Jess. See/speak to y'all soon
Toodlepipx

I've just realised what I'm facing.

Goodbye immaturity, hello puberty!

Will this be the last time I can call Toby a codfish whilst listening to the monster mash?

This will be the last time I post as a 15 year old!

Next time I will be legal to have sex and buy fags...

Damn I'm so cool...

So yeah; With less than 4 days away till I turn into a weirdo...I'm not at school due to coughing up blood and having severe pains in my lungs...

I'm just gonna make this quick, life is rather boring nowadays, no one meets up anymore and it's kinda like this:

Pig - Round Craig's...with Nips
Tab - Round Jimmy's...with Jess

And considering they're basically the only two I like to hang out with....it sucks! I was with Jess B last night though, that was pretty funny. I am hanging out with Corrine quite alot though, i just don't wanna be with her when she's texting people all the time, I know it sounds rude but I feel embarrassed for her.

Well I'll just write down what's been saved on my phone and then I'll be off.

This Way - Kanye West...A song I wanted to download, and did.

4:39:09...My counter on my phone, telling me how long I've spent ringing people...

number 15...A song on Corrine's cd, I didn't know what it was called though so I can't download it.

Mr king : There's classes still working, be quiet
Richard Shearing: Lets shout through the corridors!...I found this hilarious

Galvanize - The Chemical Brothers...A "top" tune that I had to download, and have done, and now listen to constantly...

one is the loneliest number that you'll ever do...the lyrics to a song on an advert. The song is called One by Harry Nilson. I downloaded that also :)

Well, I'll leave you with a nice song...

My Lullaby, hung out to dry
What's up with that?
It's over...
Where are you dad?
Mum's lookin' sad
What's up with that?
It's dark in here
Why, bleeding is breathing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room
Try, bleeding is believingI used to
My mouth is dry, forgot how to cry
What's up with that?
You're hurting me...
I'm running fast, can't hide the past
What's up with that?
You're pushing me...
Why, bleeding is breathing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room
Try, bleeding is believingI used toI used to
Why, bleeding is breathing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room
Try, bleeding is believing
I saw you crawling on the floor
Why, bleeding is believing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room
Try, bleeding is believing
I saw you crawling to the door
Why, bleeding is believing
You're hiding underneath the smoke in the room
Try, bleeding is believing
I saw you falling on the floor

I wonder what song that could possibly be? Take care folks, I'll talk to you when I'm legal x

Hello, Hello, Hello, Herlow!

Here we are now...entertain us!

Yeah anyway...

Life's kinda being sucky...loads of coursework and stuff...so little time. However, the amount of documetary's on the holocaust really has cheered me up.

6 days until I finally see Rob, woohoo! Well yeah... my arm is aching, and I don't know why. I have only two messages on my phone, I've had them since last year...let's get them on here...

The Lonliness of the Long Distance Runner...a film that I really liked, it was black and white.

Tom Courtney, Colin Smith...the lead person in the above film, his real name and character name.

Well, aren't I just a boring little poo? Yes...yes I am.

Air, if and when you read this, I miss you :

Take care folks, toodlepipx

I'm coming back to the start...

Well, today's been cool, apart from I miss Rob loads :( It's been over 12 hours since I last spoke to him and saw him and I hate it...

Today's been cool, lots of people have complimented on how slim I look...even Miss Men-Love Platt said I look thinner...round the neck :

I really hate school...and I really hate family...just friends...and Rob that keep me happy...when I actually am.

I am currently listening to Razorlight - Hey Ya, it's ok I guess, but I've also managed to download some super depressing songs such as ones by Manic Street Preachers and Our Lady Peace...

Beauty finds refuge in herself Lovers wrapped inside each others lies Beauty is such a terrible thing She is suffering yet more than death She is suffering She sucks you deeper in She is suffering You exist within her shadow Beauty she is scarred into man's soul A flower attracting lust, vice and sin A vine that can strangle life from a tree Carrion, surrounding, picking on leaves She is suffering She sucks you deeper in She is suffering You exist within her shadow Beauty she poisons unfaithful all Stifled, her touch is leprous and pale The less she gives the more you need her No thoughts to forget when we were children She is suffering She sucks you deeper in She is suffering Nature's lukewarm pleasure

Toodlepip folks x

So this is Christmas

Yeah I'm currently listening to Happy Christmas - The Idols...I was in love with Sam ok!

Talking of love, I would like to apologise to everyone who I said "I love you" to when I was fucked off that Tia Maria. I'm sure I just like you very much...

I'm here alone, listening to...well I've already confessed to that, waiting for Tabby to ring me so I can get a social life. I'm hot, frustrated and in a skirt, damn I'm so cool. Not really, I just don't want to wear the same trousers as yesterday.

But I will change, as it is ever so chilly outside.

I think it's now time for some Bon Jovi as I miss Len...it seemed like only yesterday that I met the guy, and now it's all over.

I don't want it to be, it's just ended up that way.

Well, I'll leave you with what was written on my phone, toodlepip folks.

Who led the roundheads? Hitler...Aodh in the "Christmas Quiz" in maths, I was in hysterics.

Danny Dyer...A fucking stunning actor that can be found in such films as: Football Factory, Mean Machine and shit, I forgot the other one, I know what I mean though...HUMAN TRAFFIC!

Ghost World...A pretty good film.

I'm not popular enough to be different...Homer Simpson said it. I really like it and I think it speaks the truth.

At first I was afraid, I was petrified...I'm really good at singing this song, I just always forget how it starts...

48, ex23 9BB...Sam's house number and postcode, so he could get a walkometer :P

OMG!

tAVB! tHAT AS THE EXACT LYIRC I EWAS ININ 2 WEN I THOUGHT ABOUT YOU. TEH ROAD THING! ever sice the day i emt you ive felt happy and odnt ever oiten to me if i bad mouthg you because you are the greatest thing that shappendint my life. before all that i was being used for is friendship, they didnt lie me at all,m it psoee it was ll just someont to hsn gout with whilst their best mate fucke off.

you are so not liek them tab, you are the greatest of themall and no mstter ehat happens i will always lvoe you, because you're not abithf, adm o dont car eif you lie, because live to

if anyone gives ahs a go at tou, jsut turn sorung and say, well hjess lveos me hbeing this way, so if you have a problem go hare it with her becaus ei dont giev a fuck.

you take care hun, because u deserve it and if akcing lveo you to bits, jess x

i loce spits on my wppelw!

i live coutnign crows., and i liek matt, and rob, and rik and and brian. they are aal;l beasutiful. oo!bos online. maybe he blokced me and maybe he didnt. christ i feel fucked. thsi is qure a reare occurance acctualyla and brian wont ring m, :( tell him to ring me

Oh tabby, i lveoy oiu. you areso swet and make sense of everything i say, brins being mean to me about love. hat happenmds if i did lvoe him'>@ he would never knwo because he atES ME. ANF HE ALWAYS WILL DO.
#
well what do i cate? hes a frgwat friend and ive missedhim lovbeas but do ilvoe him? i dunool he makes me laugh andm,akes me cry.

i lvo e alex. dammnf he sjust so jice and hot and mine, onece. but now he sint

lets talk abiout abta, i lve tab. shes the greatsets

i love tab, shes my idol. if i cud be anyione int eh world i woyud be her beacuae shes everything i want to bw, shes beautiufl, got a greta personaltiy and shes just eh greatest human being alive;

i love you tab, never be sometone yur not becayse i dont want you to ever be differnt, i lveo you xxx

Hokd on!

Wiw! Todays ben good, been tlakign to rob, the new lonv,e. he;s great I lvow him lol/ I lce tab, pig, rik n len too, not int ehtorde though! ive had my hair dyed! i lvoe brian teh snail too. he is great,. tab your are actualyl my bestest friend int eh wordla dn no ine will change that, people say you may be imamture but what the fuck hsss it got to do with them? i lkove you the way you are, amd so does len so just ntabby because itd the pebst opersonality int ehworld.

I lveo you ttba, pig, rik and len adn brin aand rob xxx

I don't care about spots on my apples...

Well the weekends been funny, talking about Corrin feeding a baby with tits...I suppose you would of had to of been there.
For the first time in about 41 weeks Tabby's gonna stay over tonight <3 We're gonna watch Notting Hill, and in the morning...I'm eating waffles :D

I just have to write about last lesson yesterday, it was s.e and I got my substitute to do a number of impressions. He sounds like Dr. Evil so I got him to talk about the fricken laser, and also he has a Bristolish accent so I got himto say yeah, but no, but yeah, but no...

Then me, Alex, Dave, Chang and Ben looked at the FHM magazine and I was in stitches, reading the sex tips and laughing at people's...frans...

Funny as fuck, don't think I was really invited to read it...but I did :)

Well, life's been treating ok recently, got shit results in my mock exams but hey! Nothing goes right for Miss Jessy Sturt.

But I will be loaded when I'm older; I'm a natural born entertainer.
If only I could sing...festering masculine voice and out-of-tunedness.

Well I'm off now, toodlepipx

You grew up way too fast, now there's nothing to believe

Well, I'll say Happy Birthday to John Rzeznik, 41 two days ago.
Damn I love that guy, and I've only just realised what life he went through, now I know where all the metaphorical songs came from.

It's sad isn't it? No one has a decent life, there's always at least one thing to get in people's ways. I mean, I have a family that still live together, we're not poor, but I still hate it!

I lack love, not the family love that I receive everyday but you know, that love.

I know if you're reading this you'll be thinking: She's just another female teenager who doesn't know what she's talking about, but I think I do. I mean, I have everything I could ever wish for except love, and decent hair, and clean skin. But hey, I don't care about my appearance so those can wait.

I feel extremely lame, yes that's right, I'm listening to Fleetwood Mac.

Tell me lies tell me sweet little lies...

Today was actually really good. At first I had an exam, it was ok, kinda easy I guess. The last of them...finally! The remaining time of second lesson was spent talking to Alex about golf, I will be spying on him at the weekend...

At break we just had a fag, I successsfully scared Corrin's little brother, bless him and his sexiness ;) I also managed to get the oh so great Mcfly songs in people's heads *mwahahahahahahahahahaha* I'm sooo bad...

Third lesson was maths, me and Nicola had a laugh, and I talked to Mopflop again! But festering Tilz came back so I had to depart. Fourth lesson was art, it was incredibly boring as Lettie and Anna decided not to join me, again. So it was just me and "Guru", and we don't talk. I got a D/E for the art exam, yes I know it's shit...but I can't draw.

Lunch was ok, it mainly consisted of me and Tab singing our perverted songs on multiple occasions, smoking illegal substances and smoking legal substances!

Last lesson was food, I was in a very big hyper and kept grabbing all my salmons' bums. I love those guys.

I saw Richard Rowland, and I told him of my undying love for him...after acting in a very immature manner for example, knocking on classroom doors and running away, screaming in people's faces and telling them that a) the chickens are after them or b) that I'm imagining them naked.

So yes... I'll either go to Corrin's then go to college tomorrow or go to Pig's so I can cook at school tomorrow.

I'll see how things go, thank you my friendly computer, for allowing me to type my oh-so-boring life.

I love you, God I'm lame...I just confessed love to a machine, oh but I do.

Toodlepip x

P.s These need to be done:

1:13 ... The time on "Andre" when he calls his wife a phallus

talk to get at their meaning not to find yours... On a rizla packet

fittys in teachers ewan and john - ...Didn't quite write the names down

rockstar - mark wahlberg colorful...I watched a film and I liked this song

motherlode...a cheat for The Sims 2

away from the sun 3 doors down...a song I wanted to download, and did

8 8tr 4 9al ... Tab and Craigs house numbers and postcodes, they wanted walkometers :D

steve wilson ... A fitty tha presents this really lame child show

madonna - ray of light ...another song I wanted to download, and did

elton john your song ...and again

the home is somewhere to get away from all your problems, not to face them. stacey about the domestic abuse week ...it explains it all

jamie cullum everlasting love ...another song to download, which I have

cascada - i need a miracle ...a song that I have to download, remind me sometime

the proclaimers were at number 36 ...I felt the need to tell Tab

weezer hashpipe sounds like the beginning of gwen stefani what you waiting for ...explains it all

how can i prove that we're live? penis ...the news guy said it on the Simpsons, facking hilarious

track 9 dirty dancing ost ... another song to download, which I have

dont wanna be an american immigrant ...Kayleigh got the lyrics wrong...I found it hilarious

the lazyboyz sweet child of mine bel-air feat. lisa sunshine after the rain ...another couple of songs to download

missing you tina turner ...and again

dad was obsessed with the yearbook ...a dream I had

go confidently in the direction of your dreams. live the life you have imagined ...on a rizla packet

ooh! free chocolate! ...Tab, when she recieved an email

y is it so warm? because its a fridge ...Mine and Pig's covnersation

warpigs dresdon dolls ...a really fucked up song that Tab wants to download

The world has come between us

I don't know why, but I have got into a very thoughtful mood. Recently I have been thinking about stuff, alot of stuff. Obviously. And all I recognise love is of fixed image sin my head, video films that were never recorded, photos that were naever taken. This is taking over my life and I really want the videos and photos to exist, and to be in my hands. I want to have the memories I have been longing for. I have finally realised that crying myself to sleep everynight is not going to help the situation. Therefore; I am pushing the best of me to the world and I'm going to fall in love. A real love, that isn't just a desire of a mans hands around me. A love that will last. I realise I am only 15, and alot of people will dispute with me saying I won't find it. But I'm Jess Sturt, and whatever I want...I will get.

All my life I have depended on love to get me through, when i was a baby I depended on my mother to feed me, clothe me and bathe me. Through my childohood I relied on my friends to give me the love, and now, although I know my friends are always here, I need a love that is stronger.

As good old Shakira sang: theres a foot for every shoe

I am a foot, and I will find my shoe, I need to, to survive.

Toodlepipx

Lifes good again :D

Right, don't get me wrong, I love Tab more than anything in the world.
But recently I've been feeling bored, doing the same shit everyday. Nothing ever changing. It's led to arguments and stuff and now Jessy Sturt has gained her confidence back.
Finally.
And most of it is due to my good friend, Miss Corrin Poo Marie Salt.

Hello

Well, this weekends been different to the usual. Me and Tab went to Sutcombe, because of like this big party thing. She enjoyed it, me not so much. Probably because I was sober. But it soon came to an end (thank God). I really didn't appreciate guys touching my ass and face just because I walk past them.
I didn't pull, surprise I think not.
Tab did, I really loved the way she would always do it when I couldn't leave her...
So I just sat there, with the face of a smacked ass.
Yesterday we stayed round Pig's till about 1 in the morning, it was fun. We watched about 5 films, they were cool actually. The walk home was hilarious.
The sleep was amazing.
And now, my arms ache, beautiful music is playing and I'm happy.
I'll just write what's on my phone.

ive been waiting for you...the film we watched last night, I fancied Eric. I found out today his name is Christian Campbell.

razorlight vice... a song I wanted to download

playground love - air. emporer norton...another song I wanted to download

adrian mutu...A fitty footballer

im a frickin chicken...I found this hilarious when I was dreaming

eyes of laura mars... a film in which Tommy Lee Jones looked stunning in

people who want pets go to a petshop. people who want a petshop go to a petshopshop. people who want a petshopshop are just being silly...it was on Little Britain. Me and Pig were in hysterics.

just the two of us - austin powers...another song to download

guess what i had for breakfast. bacon, macaroni and brocolli. oh look! 3 bs! Oh no...macaroni begins with an m...look at my brain

im so much older than i can take...Lyrics from All These Thing I've Done - The Killers that I like.

IF YOU GET WITH ONE SPICE GIRL YOU GET THE WHOLE FIVE! AAA! mel b can fuck off though...Nips made me laugh

catch your dreams before they blow away...I liked this saying

is there more to life than this?...on the back of a college bus

that immature attitude wont get you anywhere. ARCHIBALD...I just wanted Archibald to be on my phone

i know im not alone when im here on my own...me and Pig heard it on tv, it actually doesn't make sense

janiffer and normon...funny names on Coutdown Tv

gordon from bordon...Again, this is self explanatory

Have fun and take bears on holiday and leave them on mountains.
Love to all x

I'm staying in all day...I may as well make some use

And it's all in how you mix the two And it starts just where the light exists It's a feeling that you cannot miss And it burns a hole Through everyone that feels it Well your never gonna find it If your looking for it Won't come your way Well you'll never find it If your looking for it Should've done something but I've done it enough By the way your hands were shaking Rather waste some time with you And you never would have though in the end How amazing it feels just to live againIt's a feeling that you cannot missIt burns a hole through everyone that feels it Should've said something but I've said it enough By the way my words were faded Rather waste some time with you

I hate...friends?
Me?
Life?
It's all a complete load of turd.

Happy Halloween?

Honey It's been a long time coming And I can't stop now Such a long time running And I can't stop now Do you hear my heart beating? Can you hear the sound? Cos I can't help thinking And I don't look down... And then I looked up at the sun and I could see Oh the way that gravity turns for you and me And then I looked up at the sky and saw the sun And the way that gravity pulls on everyone On everyone...Baby its been a long time waiting Such a long long time And I can't stop smiling No I can't stop now Do you hear my heart beating? Oh can you hear that sound? Cos I can't help crying And I won't look down... And then I looked up at the sun and I could see Oh the way that gravity turns on you and me And then I looked up at the sun and saw the sky And the way that gravity pulls on you and I On you and I

Yesterday was horrible, I spent the entire day by myself (thanks for that, friends) without nicotine. It's now been over 24 hours since my last cigarette. I'm ok now, last night I got hot and started to panic. But it was ok, I was just stressed.

I had two good conversations last night. One was with Brian, who appears to be my new best friend from HotorNot. He's great and I feel we can talk about anything. It's so cool. He just generally makes me feel good about myself. And another one was with this random guy from Nexopia. But it was so nice. I love conversations with new people because you don't knwo what to expect, or what you'll find out.

It is now 10:56 am, I'm going to ring Pig and see if he'll see me, along with Tab and Nips. I hate being alone.

It's what I fear most.

I started reading the stuff between me and Alex again

I'm bored :(

Not just today, life. I mean I do nothing...and so...yeah. I'm left on this festering computer signing up to everything just in order to relieve boredom, I should be out living my life but all I can think about is Alex. Yes it's fetsering him again. Last night I text him, the first time in 2 months. I recieved nothing back. I had someone ring me this morning on a withheld number, they hung up as soon as I said hello, but it wouldn't of been him anayway...that would be something for me to be happy about...no way would it happen.

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say.
I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way.
For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took,
Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor?
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.
What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
(I'm not okay)
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what they mean
(I'm not okay)
So be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
I'm not okay.
You wear me out.
Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took?
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed
I'm okay.
I'm okay!
I'm okay, now
(I'm okay, now)
But you really need to listen to me
Because I'm telling you the truth
I mean this, I'm okay!
(Trust Me)
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
Well, I'm not okay
I'm not o-f***ing-kay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
(Okay)


Toodlepip x

Well it's got so boring now...

Nearly a year of blogging, and yet life just seems to get shitter and more boring than ever before, is this what it is like when you grow up? Damn I wanna be younger again...
Well I'll put on here some of the funny things I have saved on my phone:
Your living in a dream Jess...the problems have only just started...I swaer I've already wrote that...but it's still on my phone! Originally from Hollyoaks, but I changed the name to mine because I have recently discovered that I am Jess Sturt, and I have the wonderful talent of not knowing the difference from dreams to reality...

Slimey jelly dino...Air said it when I was dreaming, it seemed so funny at the time...

5 th asil air 26th feb bo...I was writing down Air and Bo's birthdays, and ofcourse I was dreaming at the time

18th oct mon...There's Mon's birthday!

im tired of feeling nothing goodbye...Lyrics from Black and Blue - Counting Crows

l640dry...Ok I look so much like a prowler now! A "mates" car registration

tellow wellow bears...Tab said it when she was dreaming. She was supposed to say Yellow jelly bears. It was funny.

friday january 29th 2044 54 years old...That's the day I'm gonna die folks, according to the internet.

jimmy eat wnrld pain...A song I heard on the radio on the way back home in Frankie's car, again I was dreaming.

gravity...A new song out at the moment, I love it! But I don't know who sings it, so if you know who then please leave a comment :)

paki that sounds like mon n retard that walks like da...At college you can see anything.

i love you, y not?...Me and Air, I was yet again dreaming and found this hilarious.

can u roll a joint, spliff?...I called Nips "Spliff", and yes, I had been dreaming.

pressqpe on the r6of...I'll leave you to figure that one out...

tom n julie were on the weakest link...Self explanatory I think.

geting wiv angy n se lesson wiv farsapq...The last word was supposed to say Farrar...it was my dream ( I write them down, not obsessed!)

heroin. cuxx we all need heroin. addibts need hesoin...I was dreaming and this was a discussion between Tab and Nips.

me kucy michaela m crorrin getin pisd on the beach. storm brewing up, michaela going skitz...Another dream of mine

The stupid fings pigs done whilst he was pissed...such as: Biting Darren Clayton's leg, Asking a bird to pull him again if he bought her a pint and falling into a bush "mid piss"

Mid piss...I found this word entertaining when I was dreaming, it's weird if you say it a couple of times...

embasred bout fone shouting 2 lettie...Something that happened a while back, I wanted to think of it when I was sober.

Pardon me it wasnt me it was you...I was so proud of myself when I made that up! (Again I had been dreaming)

Rhian Benson - Say how I feel remix...A song I liked

Well that's my draft box empty. Plans for the next couple of weeks:

• Make a film
• Get a boyfriend
• Get a job
• Spend as much time with friends as possible
• Get over Alex
  

Well thats it for me...so until I complete one of those things...Toodlepipxxx

It's been a good day :)

Wow! Nearly a year of blogging, and it gets so much worse with every post I write...
Today was good, was woken up by my cockatiel saying: Birdy, birdy, birdy...Ooh! My legs bleeding, I'll just get some tissue...or not, it'll be alright on the chair.
Well yes, I woke up, had a laugh with Tabby about tranny's, owning Bernard's Watch (care for your hair "Lena"...). It was good, then we got a lift to Pig's, watched Dawn Of The Dead then went out with Nips down the Bird Hut.
Me and Tab made the most amazing song! Probably because we were dreaming...but still it was cool. On the way home I noticed a rainbow, I was actually breath taken, I video recorded it. I've been thinking in depth about everyth8ing today and now I have a new picture in mind to draw...Well came home, masturbated for so long! Then now I'm on here. That will be enough for now...
Toodlepipxxx